Th3 Story Of Yaya

uncertainties

2012-01-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

Went to school for singing today after Chinese New Year break
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Had a short chat with Cheryl
And I realize how fearful I am when i'm thinking of future...

It's more like the fearful thought of my dear going to oversea after he graduate from BA

Heard from my relative that i need to prepare just in case things happen..
Cause my relative got break up because of oversea studies..

I know this may or may not happen but the fear of it may happen do bothers me..
I know i got to trust him.
I know i got to be brave to just let him go for him to pursue his studies
I know i got to be strong
I know i got to believe. Have Faith

But just when i told her the decision, the time we spent together.
The tears just start to gather
I have told myself frequently we have talked about this matter
We have promise each other.
But the thoughts of it just fear me....

The thoughts of him leaving me.
The thoughts of not going to see him for a long time..
The thoughts...

I didn know that i fear so much..

But I know I got to be strong...

I will just have to bear the consequences...
I just have to risk it...
I dun want to drag him down...

...守候...
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...IsWhatIWillBeDoing...

Miss

2012-01-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

My boyfriend's name

2012-01-18T00:53:00.001+08:00

I have a cute boyfriend!
And his name is Teddy surname Bear!

I miss him a lot....
*Hug*

2011-12-01T03:08:00.000+08:00

Did a love language test again..
Result change and i knew it...

6 Words of Affirmation

11 Quality Time

0 Receiving Gifts

6 Acts of Service

7 Physical Touch

Quality Time

In Quality Time, nothing says "I love you" like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed activities, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful.

2011-12-01T01:13:00.003+08:00

...I hate myself...
for being more and more greedy
for asking more on what i have
for being a jerk
for being selfish
for being a liar
for being stupid

for being pathetic

You just got to move and place yourself into the shoes and rmb what you promised...

最远的距离不是人在最北端及最南端;
而是人近在你身边但是你感觉不到他...

2011-11-29T02:58:00.002+08:00

It's 2.58am and i am not asleep....
It's deep in the night or early in the morning...

there's a lot of things in my head suddenly and i just keep letting it flow out...
of course with the help of the music that i listening too...
Ólafur Arnalds kind

Sometimes, there is a time when you just dun want to sleep
you like how the night breeze accompany you through the lonely night

and often you get your words in the head but different word when it came out...

hahahahahah!!!

so much on trying to let it flow...

...Love...

2011-11-10T22:14:00.003+08:00

亲情. 友情. 爱情. 梦想.

one incident happen

dear. wants me to say him if something he did make me unhappy.

I don't know....

to dear. is like I got something in my mind but i do not want to say.

he is frustrated about it and he do not want both of us to be courteous with each other.

He wants me to say my true feeling and intention.

I'm too good to him....

he said

Definitely there are things i do that hurt you, but you didn say

how do i know when you did not say a word

i want you to tell me, to scold me

i want to change, i dont want to hurt you without knowing

Dear. makes me reflect....

the tone of his voice, his frustration of me being so nice and nothing to complain...
or just not saying...

It pains me when i look at him, frustrating...

There are nothing that is worth me saying..

because i like the way you are...

even though sometimes i will feel hurt for a while

but that's just you...

You will change...

but sometimes, habit is difficult to change

and i know that...

I want to just look at your good points...

focus on ur good point and be grateful and blessed to have you

I know...you dont want me to bottle up

Most of the things i just forget about it and will not rmb...

I did not feel anything about what you said in the library

of you dun like people to see show of us (couple)

only until you said it then i realize...

then i feel the hurt...

I really do not know what to say...

it's so difficult to balance everything up...

too good also not good...

too selfish also not good...

I just LOVE the way you are...

even ur negative and your good points

There maybe times when i will just burst out....

pls be there for me...

somehow, maybe it's time to just talk abt this...

if we have a lot of time and if we still rmb this...

One Day

2011-10-10T20:37:00.001+08:00

One day....

Just one day, we can find a day to watch one day :))

2011-09-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

Different people have different point of view

Some make it straight & simple

Some make it indirect & complicated
Some make it round and round and round
Some make it bluntly

A few just make it different and special

logical yet everyone miss it out

...Just special...

Which one will i lie into?...

Another step of thinking to move forward or not.

A step that make me :

To go, or.... Not....to go....

HAHAHAHAAHA.......haix!

Truth......

2011-09-21T13:23:00.002+08:00

From long hair.............

To short hair~~~!!!!

Have been thinking of getting my hair short for quite some time...

Coursemates had been listening to my nagging of cutting my hair...

They used all sort of reasons for me not to cut my hair as they love my long hair...
(I don't know why...)

LIKE:
Use my dear...
(Did you tell him you want to cut short?)
(What if he don't like you to have short hair?)
(He allow you to cut your hair?)

Use lecturer...
(Did you ask for permission to cut your hair?)
(What if the character is long hair?)

Use them....
(I like your long hair, don't cut short...)
(Don't cut leh...)

Aren't they cute?

They find all means to stop me from cutting my long hair...(heavy)

After repertoire scene, I'm still continue thinking of cutting my hair...
The idea finalized on Sunday night...
There is reason behind, for me personally...
To be independent....

Finally, i cut my hair ytd afternoon before watching Rayan(?)

People don't recognize me...
Though Dr.Yu seems to recognize me...who knows~ LOL!
They think who is that boy (YEAH BOY!!!!!)

I'm thinking of just prank on people in school...

who knows...most of them are in school....

dahhhhhhhhhh...............

My coursemate
(What happen do your hair?)
(I don't know that you will cut that short....)
(SHIRLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
(I like your short hair)
(You look younger!)

See!

His Coursemate saw me 1st....

haha, I believe they did not recognize me at first...

LOL!

I'm sort of thinking of since everybody had saw my new hair...

I just wanted him to be the LAST one to see :PPP

But i failed....:(((

He saw it

and i know the 1st thing he will do...

Pat my head

A Doll's House

2011-09-19T17:43:00.003+08:00

My 1st repertoire scene falls on 15 & 16 Sept 2011...
I didn ask my friends to come, afraid...., as it is still in progress...

My mother and sister, Karen came to watch my 1st show.
So is my dear....

Jasmine TeoSeeMin, came to watch my 2nd show.
So is my dear....

A nice experience to me but there is still more works to be done...

Next: Glass Menagerie

I am blessed to have a wonderful dear..

That's why sometimes i hate myself to think and miss him frequently...

Sometimes i wish I will just forget everything about him so that it will make my life easier for both him and me....
Sometimes i wonder....if we are not together, what am i be doing...what will he be doing...

He will just continue on his pursue without me

I will just continue to be doing what i am doing....

But...

We are together now....

That's the different....

I still in love with him...so much...

The idea of him not by my side is so frightening...

The idea of separation....fears my soul...

Often i do not know what is he thinking...

How he survive...

I'm battling a self battle, not knowing anything from him...

I just keep telling myself not to think...

focus on what am i be doing if i am alone...

Or thinking what will i be doing if we are not together yet...

to be independent/ not to rely...

I am contented that he got some time to spare with me...

and i should not be greedy to ask for more...

That's the thing...

I often battling myself not to become greedy...

prevent myself diving into the pool of expectation from the other party

it's hard and tiring....mentally

After church, knowing he will not be there...

I took a longer route back home, a detour to Marina Bay after alighting at Douby Ghaut

I just feel lonely...that's all...

Simple Loneliness

It's just me...

I'm not mad, I'm not disappointed

I just feel lonely...

But life still goes on, isn't it?

Detour, a favourite hobby of mine...

Though you are still going to your destination, you just take more time...for yourself...

Time to reflect...

Time to think...

Time to reason...

Time to decide...

How many detours i have take?....

A lot!

Because i will just tear and let the liquid flow out of my eyes...

Nobody will care, they just see a girl sobbing, that's all...

You are just a nobody to them

But just reaching home, you just have to regain yourself...

so that nobody will know...

You just go back to your normal self and live on...

I'm not blaming...

I just feel lonely....

I cant blame because it's not his fault...

It happens...

It just happen....

I did a detour today...

Return the library books after getting my printed notes...

I shop around in PS and get a detour...

Thinking of going to Jurong East..

But in the end, i alight at Yishun to go to library...

Did nothing...

Ok...apart from reading scripts...

It's a day where i just feel like back in Poly days where i just do not want to do anything...

The thought of overnight still haunting me...

i don't know..

I just want to be with him...

It's so selfish of me just thinking my wants..(needs?...nahh)

Life sucks.....

HAHAHAAHAHA!!!

It happens...

Always been....

Sometimes...

2011-09-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

Sometimes....You got to buried your heart deeply inside till u cant feel...

Double

2011-09-02T23:53:00.003+08:00

Unleashed.....

It's so frightening....

It's so out of control, and madness...
I fight back but i loath at ME

i laugh at MY naive, which is hoping for him to know that is i

He knows in the end...

I'm scared....i never so out of control before...
even if i comes out, at least I am there...

Sometimes I think I'm getting more crazy...

More mental....

i will say all the bad things and the ugly side of it while I keep comforting myself to stay sane
when i sense something wrong, i will just hide away while pushing me back up to endure the consequences...
it happens before but not frequent..though occasionally...

It gets regularly quite recently...

If only someone can save me from i..........

Recently.....

2011-08-18T00:08:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i often wonders...
Why am i in the emo state quite recently...

After a long talk with my father, i realize what is it...

There are a lot of factors:

Dear do help me out to figure out some
Dad & Mum also do help me out to figure out some

School works especially my speech...

Then............................................................

Dear...............

A lot of things happen and sometimes i do feel helpless...
I want to help... I want to walk side by side with dear...
I have a lot of guessing around...
I worry....

dear do not talk much of the issue and i feel helpless..
it's like i'm being push away....

Maybe dear did say all he knows to me...
Maybe dear do not want to say much to prevent me to worry..
or maybe dear just do not know....

dad said maybe this is god's test for both me and him....
and also people related..

Maybe it's my paranoid thinking that cause all this...
Maybe i just did not really tell dear about how i'm feel (as i do not know why...)

Thank you God.

*Makes me want to get closer with dear but will it direct to the wrong direction?

To the direction that i'm not intended to go...that create cracks....

Bless me God to give me courage and bravery

Work.School.Love.Home

2011-08-14T21:45:00.003+08:00

A photo that reflect on my life now...
Full of activities when school starts...
Homeworks to deal with

However, I have a lot of fun, and i enjoying it!
A main difference from what i have experienced in my poly life
A different lifestyle i have choose for my life.

2nd time to be involved in MirrorPlay production but a different role

Having struggles during production week with school reopen all...
Having dear giving me guidance when i need...

I still reflect a lot on everything i have done, though very much small than others, in Theatre
Lots of obstacles to cross over...

My life is revolving around work.school.loves.home

A mentally stress on everything...
When school open, timetable being collided...
There is limited time to be together...
An extreme changes and a difficult period to live through...
(though it's quite small, if u are talking abt life and death...)

As things pile up, more factors join in...
I thought i can manage...
I really am...
However, it's difficult...

Loneliness keeps haunting me...
Always remind me that i am relying on him more and more...
In order to lessen the pain, i start to find ways to be back on what i have begin with..

it's like a puzzle, a 3d-puzzle...
You tried to join them together but...
it just crumpled very easily...
when you just meet up...
look at his eyes
smell his presence
feel his warmth
interlinked his palm and fingers
soul his love...

soul mate
it's what they called...

I'm just glad and blessed to have him with me...

I really am...

2011-06-10T21:20:00.004+08:00

I have to constantly reminding myself that he is not mine...

He got his own life to live in....

He got his dream to work on...

He got his time to spent on...

I wanted to hold on to him...selfishly claim his time...him...

I wanted his attention...

But this is not good for long term...

I do not want any harm...

I wanted this relationship forever...

Therefore i prevent myself the urge to contact him when he is working...

I prevent myself to be tyrant...

I prevent myself to disturb him...

I prevent myself to think about him...

My heart hurts......

when i force my desire down....

I tear when I feel my heart pain....

But i know i have to be like this...for the best of us both...

He needs to get working...

I sometimes have to admit that I feel that I'm wasting his time whenever I'm with him...

but i enjoy be with him.. every moment of it...

It is only when he is available that i allow my desire to grow...

so i hug him..

so i kiss him..

so i cuddle him..

so i tease him...

I empty my desire so that when he is busy...

I can just remind myself of what i have done...

And force my growing desire back down before allowing it to explode the next time i see him...

It's hard...

but when i look at him work.....

when i listen to his excitement about his work...

when i hug him when he feel negative of it...

When i can feel his passion burning...

I feel it is all worth it...

P.S. I miss him....like i always do....

I'm 22....

2011-05-18T00:18:00.002+08:00

I'm 22....

yet somehow i'm feel that i'm treated like 15.16

especially when i ask them can i go out and be back at home at 3.4am...

I envy most of my same age grp ppl that they can get back home as late as they can...

It's even worst when my friend said...

"U're 22 already and ur parents still dun allow u to go home late? U still have curfew?"

Protective of me...

I know...

They love me that's why...

My boyfriend came to eat dinner today...

We were watching TV in the living room and i was very close to him..

After that..

My mom said

"Dun be too close to him...Dun give too much feeling to him.. What if both of u break up, what happen to u....Females are always the one that lost more than male.."

But...for a relationship...Isn't it the one that u give ur feeling with...

if u r not serious abt the relationship then why do u want a relationship at the 1st place?

I understand what my mother is talking about...

She does not want me to get hurt if we do not be together...

She does not want me to invest my whole things to him as he is just my boyfriend not my husband..

It's so difficult....

Somehow just because they love me and protect me...

I feel like I am just a girl who do not know the outside world...

I feel odd when people who are younger than me know more things than me..

I feel strange when people who are younger than me have more freedom than me..

That's why...

I need to survive in order to get touch to the outside in my own ways...

我沒有很想你，我只是...

2011-05-07T11:59:00.000+08:00

我沒有很想你，我只是...

我沒有很想你
我只是在早上醒來的時候，看看手機，有沒有你發來的信息,有沒有你的未接來電

我沒有很想你
我只是在上網的時候，首先關注你的空間，看看你最近是不是有更新

我沒有很想你
我只是在聊天的時候，翻閱你發給我的簡訊，看著你的照片，回憶一下那些美好時光

我沒有很想你
我只是餓了，想你會餓嗎，冷了，想你會冷嗎

我沒有很想你
我只是走在大街上看到男男女女，好希望那一對對裡有我們

我沒有很想你
我只是把你的來電調成唯一的鈴音，放在我身邊，並不時的看看是否自動關機，是否信號良好

我沒有很想你
我只是在吃小吃的時候，想如果你能和我一起吃，那該是多幸福的事啊

我沒有很想你
我只是在聽歌的時候，偶爾會被某句歌詞擊中，腦中出現短暫的空白

我沒有很想你
我只是想看看你的樣子，聽聽你的聲音

我沒有很想你
我只是在別人無意提起你的時候，愣在那裡，不知答話

我沒有很想你
我只是在睡前緊握著手機，等待著你的情話，等待著你說晚安

我沒有很想你
我只是睡不著的時候想想你，但是，我不知道我是因為睡不著而想你，還是因為想你而睡不著

我沒有很想你
我只是在每次醒來的時候，第一個想到你

或許想念只屬於某一個人，如果兩個人都在想念彼此，那一定是一對幸福的戀人

你可知道
當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道

女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷哭泣

你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼
而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她
女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

於是.你們爭吵.你認為她脾氣不好.她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是.你們冷戰.你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻.用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水.
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。。。。。。。。。。

兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，
否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。。。。。。
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！。。。。。。
希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報
卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界...

Zodiac

2011-05-05T17:05:00.002+08:00

Came home after school and read zodiac...

Interesting~

十二星座怕寂寞排行榜

第十一名：金牛座——如果安全感也可以囤積
　　他們需要擁有的感覺，他們需要囤積，他們需要豐盛。為此他們常常為不能擁有而感到失落。喜歡的東西不能據為己有，他們面對這樣的現實，就會出現帶著淪陷的孤獨感，也讓他們變本加厲地過多囤積不需要的東西，過多的物質給他們帶來難言的安全感，因此能夠抵禦孤獨帶來的威脅。
　　
　　第十二名：白羊座——但願你們可以總是站在我這邊
　　他們的自信和盲目讓他們總是很難得到別人的認同。有一天他們會發現原來所有的苦難都是需要自己獨自去面對的，也會突然發現，儘管身邊朋友如雲，但似乎總沒有可以依靠的對象，突然發現人是獨立的個體。他們因此而感到惶惑，害怕無法得到他人援助的感覺，但是他們又會以賭氣的態度衝上前去，希望下一次能夠得到大家的認同。他們不會讓自己在孤獨裡沉湎下去，卻企圖通過熱鬧和刺激來調解內心的孤獨感。

最易閃電結婚五大星座

No.1白羊座

閃婚指數：99分

白羊座的朋友追求快速，在愛的世界裏，要的就是觸電般的感覺。“一見鍾情”對你來說是多麼浪漫美好的詞句，最容易閃電結婚的就屬於白羊座的你了。“看對眼”是你打開愛情之門的神秘開關，在茫茫人海中與他相遇的一剎那，你就能確認對方是不是你的夢中情人。看對了眼，只需要一秒鐘就能讓你墜入愛河。在激情燃燒的瞬間，掩飾不住內心的激動與對浪漫愛情的嚮往，便會義無反顧地閃電結婚。

12 星座吃醋安撫方式

白羊座的喜怒一向分明，他們通常不是試探派的，如果有任何不悅或懷疑，他絕對會攤開來明講的。反正他們脾氣來得像龍捲風，幾乎是一刀兩斷型的！因?直接，所以你若是沒打算瞞住他，就要有當下緩和他情緒的本事！一旦讓他生氣，他不管任何場合都會拆你的台，沖口問出像 “要他還是要我” 這樣的話。他不太可能耐得住性子，與你演出恩愛夫妻，事後再關起門來算帳。因此，只要你穩得住他，並且真的問心無愧，那麼過了那個關鍵時刻就好辦多了！他們並不是神經兮兮的人，也不是個要求太瑣碎或敏感的人。只有………

太狐媚的舉止或曖味的獨處，他們才不能忍受；在他們發怒時，千萬不要試圖辯解，好勝的他可能會與你吵起來的！只要靜下來聽他發泄，並且等他氣消後一定要仔細解釋事情始末。其實白羊只要你保證下次不再發生同樣的狀?即可。態度柔軟一點，他的心情就容易得到平復了。
金牛座是個標準醋子，連另一半與異性有太 “愉快” 的談話或坐在一起，都能讓他不是滋味！但沒看到就沒關係。反應遲緩的他們，並不會時常神經質地犯疑心病，只是害怕孤單的他們喜歡長時間的陪伴；有距離的相處會造成他的不安全感，因此，你一定要留出相當多的時間來給他，即使你工作繁忙也一定要讓他隨時找得到人。時常關機或無法清楚交待行?，就是他會懷疑的關鍵！沒時間及太活躍的交際圈都是造成他吃醋的原因。金牛座很黏，不管是男女朋友的邀約都會令他吃醋，他只喜歡兩人膩在一起相處；而拗起來的金牛可是難安撫得很，平時也許他會悶著，一旦爆發就能和你吵很久，而且屢翻舊帳，難以溝通。而且牛兒吃軟不吃硬！撒嬌會是最好的和解方法，記得，也要多點耐心，讓他看到你的誠意喔！

It's been 3 months

2011-05-05T00:57:00.002+08:00

It's been 3 months since we are together.

Lots of moments being created.

And both of us are juggling with our time with

our passion in Theatre, Relationship, Family and Work

I do not know how different we are from any couples...

how alike we are from any couples...

I just trying my best to manage and take good care of this relationship.

My 1st and will be LAST...

unless he does not LOVE me anymore

then it cant be help...

He's afraid the i left him because he hurt me

me too

I'm afraid he left me because i hurt him...

i keep thinking of what can i do to help him...

And the only thing i can do is to support him...

and that's mean not to really disturb him unnecessary...

It's time consuming...

The piece we (Thespians) do...

It hurts...

I know...

but it is necessary...

to loosen my greed for him...

to give him more time...

Tears wanted to form when i sent him off from douby...

but i force it back...

i do not know whether he knows

but i manage to not tear...

even after the train went off...

and finally when the sight of him is gone...

1 Drop, 2 drops...

Tears formed and i weep silently...

It's a short one...

but the pain is there...

I didn say, i even say how do you know that i will feel the pain

but it is a decision i made when i went to the dressing room before his grad show starts.

It was more formed when we went to eat tow huay with Darren, Mal and Veny

He said

There is one time that you said the choice between THEATRE and ME

It's different...

This is not the moment...

It's not the death moment...

I will only use that when something life important happen to me...

I BELIEVE WE CAN COPE THIS STONE

I know his passion...

I know how it feels..

That's why i will always support

I'm not good at all...

I just love you in my own ways...

rejection

2011-05-05T00:10:00.001+08:00

I went for audition in SMU

Main objective is to get to know how audition is.

And i got my main objective~

I did not got in and i know...

I NEED TO WORK HARDER...

or to say

I NEED TO TRAIN HARDER~~

life still move on~

I still not good enough......YET!!!

LOL!!!

一人一半,才是(伴) -- 文╱王偉忠

2011-04-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

陶子重義氣，她要我做什麼，我就做什麼。她要我談一談婚姻感情，就談吧！反正我也到了開口說話會帶點道理，但年輕人聽不進去的年齡。

我跟太太戀愛八年結婚，婚後十七年，總共認識了二十五年。這麼長的時間日夜相伴，身旁偶爾沒有她，感覺很爽，倘若此後一輩子沒有她，萬萬不可。

像前一陣子看到一則意見調查，問年輕女孩，家人、父母、孩子、老公與事業，如果硬要抉擇，會先放棄哪個？

女孩選了選，先放棄了事業，然後家人、父母，剩下老公與孩子難以抉擇，最後選擇放棄孩子、留下老公，理由是家人、父母、孩子最終都會離開身邊，但老公會是終身伴侶。很殘酷、但也很真實。

中國字的寓意深遠，「伴」，就是一人一半，湊在一起才完整。

現今許多人適婚卻不婚，老人家看了奇怪，過去從沒發生過類似狀況。這現象代表五、六十年來沒有戰亂、年輕人長大過程中享有家庭溫暖與親情支援，因此認為單身也能過得很好，不論敗犬或是單身貴族，不覺得非要個伴，是歷史上首度可以一個人過日子的平安歲月。衰老未至，沒有歲月的壓力，等年齡到了，開始覺得孤獨、害怕孤獨，想找個人分享，還是需要個伴。

若要進入婚姻，套一句不負責任的老生常談，要靠緣份，除了緣份以及感性的感覺，還要理性的選擇。婚姻確實需要理性，如果女兒論及婚嫁，我一定要求要看看………

對方家庭，什麼樣的家庭會養出什麼樣的孩子，當然，也有破碎家庭的孩子更努力維繫自己的幸福家庭，但一定要仔細觀察。

而另一個老生常談就是婚姻需要兩個人有相同的價值觀，但這不是說「我喜歡的你一定要喜歡」，而是「我不討厭你喜歡的」，就可以了，兩人可妥協，可退讓，願意試著接觸自己本來討厭的，看看是否真那麼不能接受，有這樣願意妥協的心情，比較容易維繫感情。

而婚姻與愛情最大的不同，在於願不願意改變。願意為了對方改變自己，是真愛，從頭到尾都不想改變自己，這段感情充其量只是對方愛你。

戀愛是短暫的交會後很想在一起而開始，很想閃的結束。開始時乾柴烈火，講究原汁原味，眼前的他什麼都好，是全天下最酷的、最美的，不需要改，但等到愛情疲了，才發現這人酷到不近人情、美得過於臭美、連刺青的位置不對，趕緊推給個性不合閃人。因此戀愛講究的是如何好聚好散

進入婚姻，當然還是會有許多衝突，學習重點是「相處的藝術」。男生該學的第一課就是上廁所必須掀馬桶蓋，一開始改變很不習慣，後來融入身體，像吃飯喝水一樣自然。

但最近老婆說不只要掀蓋子，尿完還希望我拿衛生紙擦擦馬桶周圍留下來的「遺跡」，按照過去的脾氣，一定就「老子愛….」，但現在的我會聽太太的意見，因為「愛」字裡有個心，不是光用腦想著該送什麼禮物給她，要用心。

太太也改變不少，她不喜歡戶外活動，婚前知道我愛潛水、跟著背起十幾公斤重的空氣瓶跳進海底求生，這麼愛美的她怕晒黑、塗防晒油塗滿臉，一回頭、嚇一跳，怎麼來了個歌仔戲花旦跟我一起玩。

婚後我又想潛水，她就說「不必了」，理由是家裡有孩子，不宜從事太危險的活動。

以前一個人在台北發展，要自己照顧自己，還要爭名奪利，不自私很難在短時間之內成就自己。結婚之後學著喊太太的媽媽「媽！」，有食物，不能先放進自己嘴巴，要顧著妻小先吃。我開始懂得心疼與珍惜，因為太太很好，捨不得讓她不舒服、捨不得讓她傷心，這些捨不得讓我自然學會了讓、學會了愛，也自然的改變自己，從自私變成大方。

婚姻的路是每天類似的風景，同樣的過程、淡淡的，要相處得好，真得靠慧根，所以找對象不能光想找個腿長奶大的辣妹，或是像金城武的帥哥，要找個讓自己想起他來心裡甜甜的，回頭一看，那人就在燈火闌珊處，這就是最好的對象。

而所謂另一半，也不是一開始就契合，是在修正中不斷的磨合，你多一點我少一點，像拼圖一樣拼在一起，才能一起過一輩子。

當然，歲月無情，人生最終還是分離。像我媽媽十六歲嫁給爸爸，相守相愛了一輩子，爸爸十多年前過世之後，媽媽真像少了一半，常凝望遠方，像爸爸就在天的那一邊，令人感傷。但人生如果少了婚姻、少了隨之而來的酸甜苦辣生老病死，少了孩子延續家的價值與感情，真會少掉很多滋味。

EMO.....LIKE HELL!!!

2011-04-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

Since monday?....

After voice & speech, i just cant get off the sad emotion from me...

I should not have touch that imagination section...

I do not know that the impact will be that huge! (or be that long duration...)

*I do not want it either...

I just get into this imagination something like a couple...

kissing and got hit by a car...

Gal survived but the boy did not..

He was squashed between the gal and the car.

He absorb the full impact from the car that's why his internal organs were beyond reviving...

Just imagine that...

Plus like deeply in love couple part and their hands wanted to stick together...

that kind...

It become stronger when i put him inside that imagination...

I didn know i can be that emo...(maybe i really am that emo)

i thought i need just a day or two to recover...

Maybe i listen to River Flows In You too much? - like immersed deep inside the mood

Maybe PMS?

Maybe of the exam stress?

It's only when i'm alone that this will suddenly appear..(Maybe X2)

It happen to me before..

But the different is....I am not alone...

He is there...with me...

But i feel that i hurt him in a way...(?)

My response to his...

My vocal reply to his 1 phonecall...(super nice of him!)

The awkward pauses...

I do not really know he feel the respone...

but i felt that he feel it...

THIS PATHETIC EMO EMOTION HURT HIM!!!!! (I feel)

And i feel bad abt it

I hope he will not get affected abt it...

I will get rid once i get the solution...

Student counsellor?

Get counseled?

He said Share it out, as we are together now~and future...(Not exact words but meaning should be same... :P)

But... how can i say when i do not know why am i like this...

It took me like a few hours of one person thinking what's wrong when i think that's probably where the problem lies...

I wanted to hug him..

I wanted to kiss him..

I wanted to hold hands with him...

I wanted to tease him..

I wanted him to be by my side..

I wanted to listen his voice..

I wanted to feel his warmth..

I wanted to get his presence...

I MISS HIM....even though it is like 2.5hrs since we last met...-.-lll

edit: 0047....Maybe because i feel lonely all of the sudden bahh...

It's Good Friday

2011-04-22T18:50:00.002+08:00

It's good friday and after 1 and half hours of mass...

I went to have a long long nap while Brenda was watching her vampire diary in parent's room.

It's been so~~~~~~~~long that i have a wonderful afternoon nap...

I have been working working non-stop....or what he said fighting fighting non-stop

It's great to have a day off although it's on Good Friday..

Did not eat much as i am fasting....

However, we are going to have a full meal (not that luxury though)

I miss him....

Hopefully tmr we can eat breakfast before he go for work and i go for school...

lol...see how lahh~~

Personality Traits By Blood Type

2011-04-12T21:02:00.002+08:00

Personality Traits By Blood Type

Find out what blood type you are and see if it matches your personality.

'TYPE A'
Type As most often described themselves in ways related to the following characteristics: sensitive to the needs of others, good listeners, detail oriented, analytical, creative and inventive. Type As may seem calm on the outside, but inside, you’re filled with anxiety and worry. You’re perfectionists and often shy and sensitive. Usually introverted, you’re stable and thoughtful. You make good listeners and are sensitive to color and your surroundings. You like to be fashionable and are up on the latest trends, but never flashy or gaudy. You like romantic settings and often shun reality for fantasy worlds. A is most compatible with A and AB in the love department. Common career choices: accountant, librarian, economist, writer, computer programmer, and gossip columnist.
Blood Type A - Tend to be cooperative, sensitive, clever, passionate and smart. Often bottling up anxiety in order to get along with others, they may hold in their emotions until they explode. Many are tense, impatient and unable to sleep well. While they are capable of leadership positions, they may not take them because the stress is not good for their tightly wired systems.

'TYPE B'
Blood Type B's often described themselves in ways related to the following characteristics: subjective, easygoing, creative, original and flexible. In another study, Type B's scored significantly higher on "intuiting," indicating a preference or sixth sense information; and they scored high on the "intuiting/feeling" combination, indicating that they tend to be insightful, mystical, idealistic, creative, globally-oriented, people-oriented and good at imagining. They also reported that they learned best through listening, then reflecting on and interpreting what they had observed. Perhaps the nomadic life of the steppes contributed to long hours given over to talk as well as ample time for meditation and reflection. Type B's can be very goal-oriented and often complete the ambitious tasks set before them. Outgoing and very charming, you’re good at reading people and providing support. Though critical of appearance (but not your own), you aren’t picky and are unlikely to dwell over the little things.
Type Bs are impulsive individualists who often create their own path in life. You are very strong and optimistic. B is most compatible with B and AB lovers. Common career choices: cook, hairdresser, military leader, talk show host, and journalist. Blood type B individuals tend to be balanced: thoughtful like A's and yet ambitious like O's. They are empathetic, easily understanding others' points of view, yet often hesitating to challenge or confront. Chameleon-like and flexible, they make good friends.

'TYPE O'
Type O’s most often described themselves in ways related to the following characteristics; responsible, decisive, organized, objective, rule-conscious, and practical. Both male and female Type O’s reported a higher percentage of the mesomorphic body type when compared to controls. Interestingly, Type O’s also scored significantly higher than the rest in “sensing” – using the 5 senses to gather information, and in the sensing-thinking combination, indicating that they are more detail and fact oriented, logical, precise and orderly.
Type O's are the social butterflies. Often popular and self-confident, you are very creative and always seem to be the center of attention. You make a good impression on people and you’re often quite attractive. Organized and determined, your stubbornness will help you reach your goals. You make good leaders. Lovewise, O is most compatible with O and AB. Common career choices: banker, politician, gambler, minister, investment broker, and pro athlete. Blood Type O - Tend to be loners or leaders and are intuitive, focused, self-reliant and daring. They handle stress better than other blood types and have strong immune systems, a well developed physique and a physically active nature.

'TYPE AB'
Type AB often receives mixed messages about emotional health. While you tend to be drawn to other people and are friendly and trusting, there is a side of you that feels alienated from the larger community. At your best, you are intuitive and spiritual, with an ability to look beyond the rigid confines of society. You are passionate in your beliefs, but you also want to be liked by others and this can create conflicts. In an independent study, Type ABs described themselves as emotional, passionate, friendly, trusting and empathetic. Type ABs are considered some of the most interesting of the blood types, both John F. Kennedy and Marilyn Monroe were Type ABs and although both are long gone, they hold a place in our national psyche to this day. Not surprisingly, ABs can be quite dualistic, possessing both A and B traits. You may be shy and outgoing, and hesitant and confident. You often stand out from others, don’t like labels, and are nice and easy going. You are logical and determined to do things correctly. Usually trustworthy, you like to help others. You often speak in a serious manner. Your patience, concentration, and intelligence are admirable. AB can find a soul mate with any other blood type. Common career choices: bartender, lawyer, teacher, sales representative, and social worker.
Blood Type AB - Tend to be very charming and popular. They don't sweat the small stuff and can be seen as spiritual and even at times a bit "flaky". Only about 2 - 5% of the population are blood type AB. There is never a dull moment in a AB's life, so if you find one for a friend, consider yourself lucky! Youll enjoy some exciting times together! Sometimes it is difficult to be an AB. AB's don't like to fit in anyone else's "boxes". If they feel too confined, they'll break out of that box and do things their own way.

It's been a super long time since i last blog...

SUPER LONG~~~

Life changes a lot since that amazing day...

My views change for some but i will like to be where i am now...

But there are changes to be made in order to improve..

It's random...but i miss him a lot even if we have just parted for a few hours...

Zebra Queen

2010-10-29T23:52:00.002+08:00

Fr0m School Girl to....

Zebra Queen....

What a big contrast there is...

It's one of the character observation that i have to do for acting.

Practice is still on going...

I hope Monday it will turn out nice & presentable..

I think a lot....

From the comment from my college...

"People are paid to act...you pay to act this?"

It's painful actually...

But i think it over, actually the reason behind on why i would like to take it..

You need training...

I'm not born to act...I'm not talented anyway...

I need training...to know what to prepare...

At least i will not be that painful anymore since i thought it over..

Anyways, i have a semester end presentation...

but the only confirmed is on the 15 nov...

call it a day for now...LOL

2010-09-22T22:34:00.003+08:00

Watch Charlie St. Cloud with YiLing (After so long never meet up with each other.)

The movie is nice. With all that ARTY ARTY thingy..

I like it when the character is struggling between his dead small brother & his new relationship gal

The struggle made me heartbreak but not literally...

It's sad...

After watching the movie, i would like to borrow the novel to read it...

but that will be after all the struggle i have for my work, my studies & my life...

Step Up 3 is another movie that i watched.

The dance step is nice but i like the robot guy!

Totally amazing & it's so wonderful to see him so focus in his robot step

That's how actor should be...FOCUS...

I should learn more & be more focus...

It's one of movie that i would like to take my time off to watch.

I do not know how it goes but from the trailer, it seems to be so cute and nice...

It's been a while....

2010-09-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since my last blog entry....

Life has been fully packed that i finally got myself a stomach flu + flu...

However, it's a fruitful experience for me & I actually really like it the way it is...

Things that i have not done & target to get it done during tutorial week:

- Report on POOP

- Report on Above Us Only Sky

- Theory on Body & Movement (Jazz & Tap)

- 1000 words essay on acting

- SAS presentation: Etceters

- Props for SOLO FLIGHT

- Practice on Singing

- Change lyrics for one of the songs

Having dizziness every now & then, somehow the hearing is like become mute to me

I need to get more rest & drink lots of water!

Oh...I miss EVERYBODY!

I mean D2I peeps...

MY DEARS (YiLing gang)

Sometimes i wish to just go to MUSICSTORY & pay a visit...

Life goes on with full of imagination...

Inception

2010-07-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

Watch Inception alone after school.

Was full of thoughts regarding on presentation for Antigone

Is totally amaze about the craft they did.

Especially what the "ARCHITECT" student done...

AWESOME!

The whole gala thing, hopefully things will patch up with all the things going on

and hectic schedule ahead.

2010-07-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

I bought a Ginger Bread man for Rachel

& i actually let the doll ride an attraction

& IT SURVIVE!!!!

I am so proud of him!

Have this photo taken when we found there was a rainbow.

& it was so clear that we can see the 7 colours of the rainbow.

school going to start in 2 weeks times...

preparations are made

status changed from FULL TIME - CASUAL PART TIME

CEPAS got registered

borrowing books from library to read related topics

bought books...LOL

第一天...第二晚...

2010-06-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

已经过了第一天了...

忙于工作的我, 至少不让自己想很多或留恋很多...

但是下班后...真的...

悲伤的情绪就充满了我空洞的思绪...

为什么不让我继续..

为什么要把它画上句点呢?...

心还没有愈合....到几时我才可以放下....

失恋

2010-06-01T23:02:00.004+08:00

I promise not to write in FB...

it's another way of showing care towards him...

but...i need a way to express out...or else, i will feel the pressure keep on building it inside...

He knows...

He said...

It's over....

Although i tell him i know...I smile...but i felt empty...

he is always looking at my facial expression...

he is afraid that i am breaking down..

i start to act as if it's alright...

i think a lot of people will find why this stupid gal is crying the hell out of her...

tears dried up but new hot row of tears starting to roll down my cheek.

i got to act as if nothing has happen...

i got to continue on my life...i need to work....

the pain...it's hurting me..

i need work to numb it...i need to work...

or else i will feel the pain again..

3rd time or 4th time...

I got the experience enough to get over with...

but i know this time, i hurt a lot...

this time is for real....

wtf....

Clearing the webs & dust here

2010-05-29T08:08:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time i blog in here...

At least it's mean that i am so busy in work & so busy in playing facebook games...HAHA!!!

What started me to blog now is that i got a dream that i really wish it will come true...

somehow it's too good to be true...

however, it's the 1st time i dream about him...

Yah..i do dream JIRO, KOICHI, XIU & ZAX before...

They are my idols!!!

But this time, it's really like him...

the scenario is like so DRAMA...

but it's so real that i need to double check myself that am i dreaming it...

Heart a bit pain whenever night fall...ok...not every night...sometimes there is sometimes not

It's also mean that another day with him has gone that's why i am not that lively...

Sent one of my loves ytd, & i almost cried..

but i held it back...

he's going to NS that's why got to quit the job..

counting down to a month or 2 or maybe a bit of 3 months...

I got a feeling the whole team is going to change a lot of people...

People i like will be going off...but people NI will still be staying on...

I maybe going off too but i really wanted to stay & work...

see how the situation goes...

Time FLIES....

♥11种值得深交の女生♥

2010-04-21T12:02:00.002+08:00

Read this post in FB.

Quite nice.LOL

Oh...& is in chinese

1.她很想陪着你，即使是在网上，一句话都不说。你开心

的时候，她很想在你身边看到你微笑的样子。你失落的时候

，她第一时间在你旁边安慰你，想破脑袋想帮你。你熬夜到

很晚，她的QQ或者msn陪你一起亮着。如果你下线了，

再登录一看，她的头像就暗了。你知道吗？她熬到那么晚只

是在等你。

2.懂事，知道什么时候该撒娇，什么时候该像爱小孩子一

样疼惜你。如果你是个学生，她不会任性地要求你翘课陪她

逛街，不会让没有经济来源的你买奢侈品。如果你已经工作

，她不会埋怨你忘记打电话给他，不会在你工作烦心的时候

要你甜言蜜语，即使自己心情再不好，也会轻轻拥着你，始

终站在你这边。

3.不放过任何与你有关的信息，融入你的生活圈，朋友圈

。结识你的朋友，链接任何在你空间留言的朋友的页面，看

你喜欢的电影和书，去你喜欢的餐厅，逛你喜欢的品牌店，

甚至笨拙地模仿你欣赏的异性类型。她不是不够好，而是想

变得更好，更适合你，更容易得到你的认可和赞许。

4.她绝不会在你同事同学家人朋友面前提你的缺点，嘲笑

你，哪怕只是玩笑。她可能觉得你这么做那样做不对，但会

给足你男人需要的面子，帮你打圆场，帮你找台阶下，只晒

幸福，只说你的好。

5.她需要你的肩膀，但是绝不会凡事都依赖你。她在你面

前很弱势，常常需要你来把持局面。不是她笨，只是喜欢在

你面前装傻，喜欢被你照顾。但她不会粘着你，把你当保姆

，该独立的时候她可以一个人。

6.她不会总是要求你先让步。男生要懂得包容和迁就，不

是因为她是女人，而是因为你是男人。但她绝不会因此被宠

坏而从头至尾都等着你主动向她道歉，而是会很小心翼翼地

跟你撒娇，求得你的原谅。

7.她发给你的短信几乎不会有错别字，不会有歧义。她很

注重跟你在一起时的一切细节，连发消息之前都会反复确认

好几遍，措词，语气，甚至表情。

8.她和你朋友一起聚会时候会打扮得漂亮但不会妖艳，只

会在你面前偶尔穿很火辣的衣服。她永远会把你与其他男生

区别对待，而不是总是孔雀开屏般向所有人展示美丽。

9.看到女人围着你转，她会吃醋，那些女人很优秀，她更

容易吃醋，但是不会无理取闹，兴师问罪。她关心你，在乎

你，想要抓住你。只要你肯耐下心，不要吝惜让她安心的话

。她需要的只是一句别人听不到只有她能听的话。

10.她也许会有很多异性朋友，也许不乏追求者，但是她

会明确告诉他们她喜欢的是你，而且不会拿这些人的优点跟

你作比较。她会时不时告诉你谁谁谁要追她，看到你紧张的

表情，会很满足地加一句，我心里只会有你一个人o(∩_

∩)o…不是她无聊，她很需要被重视。

11.她会很认真很专注地看着你，听你说话。看清你的样

子，记住你的声音。她不仅爱你，也欣赏你。把你当作偶像

，情人，哥哥，孩子，父亲。

2010-04-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

No words can express my feeling towards the new peeps that working together with.

Of course there is some minor "neg" people...

However, it is so much fun working with them...

It feel so good..

Lots of teasing, lots of fun, lots of laughter...

21st birthday

2010-03-26T19:36:00.002+08:00

Specially take off on 25 & 26 March for my birthday celebration.

It's raining for the day but luckily it stop raining in the night.

Having SUPER fun in the room thanks to FIONA, although there is only a few due to my last min notice....><

but then i'm still having fun, laughing out loud, eating buffet, listen to K-POP song...

people said, "huh...just like that ahh...your 21st birthday lehh..."

But shirley just want a simple celebration...shirley is too poor to afford luxury celebration...

26 march

Finally get to ride ROM, WaterWorld, LCA, Monster Rock....

It's wonderful!

And yep, we went off super early...

JTSM got school, i wanted to go home & rest.

Going to work tmr, hopefully everything goes well...

BY THE WAY

Got presents:

The nice sweet smell perfume

The OUT-OF-STOCK ANAN book featuring SAKURAI SHO!!!!

I will DROOL lahh!!!

hahahaha

Lavender series

2010-03-23T21:19:00.004+08:00

My mother just came back from Taiwan.

The plane was delay though from around 2330 to 2408...

Yup, it's midnight...

I should have stay longer inside the office....

But what have decided been decided...

no point ponder it over & over again...

These are what my mom bought for me ^^

So happy to get these, they really smell nice~

Shower Gel

Body Milk

Lip Gloss

Soap

Smell really nice even with the wrapper wrapped around it

Reed Diffuser

Have not open yet...

But the fragrance is just out & out & out!!!

Massage soap

Hand Therapy

Hopefully there goes nothing tmr...

Heard the plan is going to bottletree with my family to eat the seafood...

esp the CRAB!!!!

Movie Marathon

2010-03-11T23:44:00.002+08:00

Having Movie Marathon at Cineleisure with Yiling.

It's really entertaining to see all 3 movies in 1 day.

Alice In Wonderland 3D

Kaiji

Tatsuya Fujiwara is one of the actors that i admire about.

The whole movie is nice~ <3

He's one of the reason that i would like to study in Theatre.

Nodame Cantabile
It's starting from Stacy who intro this drama to me.

& I am so stick to it.

Damn funny & nice show, looking forward to watch the 2nd part!

Have a talk with Yiling after for quite some time...

the last time is when we are watching PJATLT

Going to sleep, working tmr.

I think i will die tmr lahh...maybe too tire or what...hahahahaha

USS

2010-03-07T15:12:00.004+08:00

Somehow, I felt the same as the poor guy hung on the tree..

我不知道是不是只是"欣赏"还是"喜欢"或是"好感"

很矛盾就是了...

虽然很想说喜欢就是喜欢..

但是没有那个勇气...

很喜欢他在我身边...

喜欢那个迟钝的他,讲话的他(对,他的声音...哈哈), 恶搞的他,还有很多他...

可是应该只是那样的关系吧...

沈娴莉,你不要想太多了啦...

不可能的啦...

Freedom

2010-02-19T02:18:00.002+08:00

Once, there is a time when this person telling me to go for more church service.

Going to Church is good but the reason behind it is totally ridiculous...

Just because there are a lot of obstacles at that moment, this person just take it i didn go for enough church service...

WHAT STUPID EXPLANATION IS THAT...

Religion is one's private moment with GOD...

AND IT IS TOTALLY NONE OF YOUR STUPID BUSINESS!!

NONE!

Somehow there is almost no privacy when u are working...

your contact no. is like posting up and any people with that STUPID determination will find ways to link u when u don't wish to.

Somehow i feel that this handful of guys are TYPICAL DESPO SINGAPOREAN...

I really think so...

Resort World Sentosa

2010-02-09T15:49:00.003+08:00

CNY is coming, but i do not have that festive season celebration feel.

Spring cleaning is on process though...

And yepp, i think it is time to clear up the mess in my room.

It's much more tidy now.

After CNY, i have an audition to go for...

My lines are memorized, but how to make it better...

How do make it that the character is naive and full of dream & imagination.

How to make me become the character but not me..

I got UPs & DOWNs...It's getting on my nerves...

But maybe because i care too much, that's the reason why i am acting like that?

Lots of things to do and yet the payback is the same.

& yet nobody that is experienced enough want to take over..

What nonsense is that...

Just because you're gonna quit doesn't mean that you can heck care..

This is a working place not a school for you to heck care & letting teacher or parents to cover it up for you...

Isn't he SEXY

2010-01-20T10:19:00.002+08:00

Isn't he SEXY?

I found 1 more photo that is more SEXY then this photo.

But then, i'm not going to put it up, not now.

I love the ANAN photoshoot, making him more SEXY...LOL

Found a couple of friends working Resort World Sentosa.

What a small world!

2 at WATERWORLD.

1 at JOURNEY TO MADAGASCAR.

2 at retail

2 at entertainment.

When will all my friends get inside then?...

Interesting....

My shoes are not here yet...

When will they be coming then?

I cant wait for them to come...

Miss a lot of dramas lately, going to follow-up & organize it.

My space is full of mess...

My life is though not full of mess, but disorganize...

2010-01-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

I know...You may not stand him to appear in my blog every now & then...

but i don't bother...

Didn have a good rest for the past few days.

It is all like rush rush rush...

One event is that i went to NAFA Open House to look at my course that i wanted to enrol.

The lecturers there are like fun to talk.

I actually get emotional when i got into the workshop.

It's like...i finally found my dream course that i can get in.

However, 1st i need to pass the audition.

I actually teared when i watched the very same activity happen in that workshop..

maybe i am just too tire that i cant control my emotion well..

Well, i just need to pass my audition test & soon...

i hope i can get in the course & start my new journey~

The night is coming..

2010-01-13T14:02:00.002+08:00

Life seems to be messy now...

Started my graveyard shift...

It's totally madness, luckily it's only for a period of time.

I realize that when the time start at 4am, i start to tire & cant really focus.

Actually from sun onwards, i didn sleep but nap.

In the midst of report writing & working, i am finding my brown shoe for work.

That take away my nap time..

For that sun -tues, i only nap for maybe 3-4hrs maybe?

I know the other Shirley is worse...

She work like 3 days?..

Coffee didn work a lot!

All it does is to let you fart a lot & you smell like coffee..

I should try coke or other stuff then...

1 small incident

If you are too tire, just sit cab & go home...

The incident is that after the whole work, more like marathon, i take mrt back home.

I nap from harbourfront to outram..

then when i got onto the train towards marina bay from raffles place.

I nap...

When the mrt reach Douby Ghaut, i actually woke up and rush out..

I was disorientated.

I look around and take me 3 mins thinking, am i rushing to work or going back home...

When i realize i should go home,

i took another 3 mins to think should i take marina train or jurong east train

So guys, when you are really really really tire like for the past 48 hrs and not nap for 3-4hrs,

you should just take cab and go home..

Saigo no yakusoku is really nice.

RockClimbing IS FUN!

2010-01-06T11:56:00.002+08:00

This is the cat that i have written in the previous post.

かわいいじゃないですか。

Went to rock climbing, 1st time since my sec 3...

I manage to climb to the top, although i am a beginner + fear of height(?)

After return them the equipments, i nearly faint though.

Get tire & resting my head on the counter.

Yan Ling said my face turn pale...

I know, something wrong.

My vision turn so white suddenly...

like having a sunny day & it is too bright for me to see anything.

My hearing begin to turn into mute kind, like someone turning the volume of the television down.

I know i'm going to faint.

However, i manage to pull it through.

Thank goodness Yan Ling is there or else i think i will really faint off.

I get better when i get into the break room with air con on.

Rest for a while & i manage to recover from it.

Told my symptoms to my mum..

She said i got a heat stroke

Well, this is like an "exciting" day for me.haha!

I was really shock to get this feeling.

but rock climbing is fun!

Next, planning to have a lunch marathon!

Hope we can get the target!

Sherlock Holmes

2010-01-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Sherlock Holmes with Jasline.Aini.Huda.Rainer + Jasmine

It's a super nice movie & i looking forward for its part II.

All those super detailed slow motion, it's like WOW!

Have a small talk with KBOX..

Just to know new updates on them.

Haha.

My mum actually hide behind the wall & scare the hell out of me...

.......by saying "BOO".......

WTH.

Until now, when i am typing, i can feel my throat itching from shouting out so loud.

I never shout that loud for like how many donkey years...

Bought 2 jackets again.

I starting to love YuNiKuRo (ユニクロ)...

どうしょう....

Which course to choose from?...

2010-01-04T22:48:00.003+08:00

I met this cat who sleep like nobody business.

Its tummy is facing upright.

One ROAR from my sis & it open its eyes.

It look at us & realize is the same bunch of people who like to see it sleep.

One full turn & its back is facing us..

THE END

Maybe because it's somebody influence that i start to like cat too.

Maybe some species.

Actually i am going to apply for course in NAFA.

I am stuck on which one to choose from.

Since its deadline is Mar 2010,

i might as well wait for its open house & do research before submit my application form.

I do not want to regret from doing things harshly.

Another photoshoot day tmr?

Hmm...I am still considering...

But there will be movie day for tmr night.

: D

2 Jan Activities

2010-01-03T21:52:00.004+08:00

Having Buffet @ Marriott Hotel.

Me.Godmother.Mom.Rachel.Karen.

The food there are quite nice & the service there is more than expected.

If i remember correctly, this is my 2nd time eating there.

I think we are actually a bunch of noisy people who tried to be quiet.

In the end, we are still a bunch of noisy people. :P

Rachel is getting restless when the buffet was coming to an end.

She actually ate 2 rounds of ice-cream, okie...that is normal.

The place is really nice.

You can just eat the crab, the prawns, the ham, the cakes, the juice.

All i can say, it's nice...haha!!!

Went to meet the poly gang for gathering.

Took this photo while waiting for them at Ngee Ann City.

It's interesting though...

One pillow and one "Hourly Special" in the other.

See Heng

Jasmine

Aloy

Guang

Let me remember on playing with the shadow.

We were chatting & doing nonsense.

Wei Hung & Kai Ling did come but they went off after that

The later of the day, Aloy left & Guang went to fetch his girlfriend.

SH,J & I initially walk towards PS until i said i wanted to shoot the istana park view.

So all those random photos are from that timeline.

Giraffe is located at Istana Park, we thought it is a expensive restaurant.

It is not!

The price list is around the same as Fish & Co.

Shooting this while waiting to be served.

Jasmine & I ate this but we cant finished it...

Guang ate the remaining though..

This is SH's dish, it is so tender and nice.

It melts inside your mouth & you will feel shiawase kanji.

We went to PS to meet Valerie & Valerie's Friend...(Sorry forget the name..><)

The group of them went to play LAN.

While Jasmine & I went to play arcade..

In the end of the day, we spent more money than the group of them.

WE REGRET IT !

Jasmine actually said "Yao Siu, wo hua le 85 kuai leh!"

Yah, i spent a lot on that day too.

Now, budget budget then...LOL

2010

2010-01-01T08:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2010!

Today is the 1st day of 2010, i know a lot of people just came back from the craziness...

however, i am just awake and preparing to go for work.

Next week schedule is like graveyard shift & i really do not know can i make it...

4 days of PP...

my expression is like O.O... "serious?"

went to eat steamboat with

Fiona, Jasmine, the Pek sisters (thx a lot for ur services) & gangs

it's really nice & joyful.

the scene from there is beautiful & windy.

I still ponder over to get into video production or theatre course.

one is to do with camera, another is to do with the script & create ambiance..

2009-12-31T00:44:00.004+08:00

Going to write this post before we invite 2010!

Lots of changes have been made..

But i will try my very best to remember the goods one instead of the bads one.

I love the way how Aiba Masaki has done for his character.

I do not care whether is it his real character or he acted out but i LOVE it.

The way he view his work, the ATTITUDE he has done for his work.

This is the part where i admire him the most.

Having a small talk with USS dears @ mac.

Although it is a small talk but it covers quite a no. of topics.

Regarding on GHOST, MOVIES, PEOPLE, WORK, the BEER MEN, etc

Conclusion...

I am just still trying to view where is that person pro point.

I hope in next year, that person will be better.

I just hope EVERYTHING will be better

USS dears will know what i mean.

Because it's always to be that person.

My USS dears just dont emo too much about it.

We can make it!

Suck It Up & Live With It!

2009-12-29T00:50:00.002+08:00

Heard from him, "you will just have to SUCK IT UP & LIVE WITH IT"

Somehow it is the attitude that matters...

It is also how you manage your priorities...

If you got attitude problem & priorities management problem,

you got to try and SUCK IT UP & LIVE WITH IT

Or else, other people can actually take over you..

I do not admit that i am GOD! person but i am trying my very best to give it all.

I will not afraid of anything unless i have done sin things that i am guilty about.

I will admit my faults, i will speak out my thinking

THIS IS ME!

Somehow the problem get better & worse but then life still goes on!

That is why SUCK IT UP & LIVE WITH IT

Forgive and forget about it but not forgetting it completely...

Just have to wait who is the one who cannot tahan anymore...

The Changes!

2009-12-27T21:46:00.002+08:00

Do you guys notice the BIG change?

Finally, I have change my blogskin!!!

It's been like 1 year...

Have make some changes on the photos.

All the photos are either shot by me or FTTL,of course it is because i am inside!

I feel so refreshing when i get to change it!hahaha!

It's turn out to be so fine!

AWESOMENESS!

My mum thought Sho kun was Tsuyoshi kun...

I realise they look almost alike...

It is the type that i like?...

Interesting...

2010 is coming..

Time flies really quickly...

2009-12-26T22:38:00.002+08:00

人在一生中或多或少会遇到自己选择的路而后悔.

有一些人会选择继续走下去

有一些人会自暴自弃

有一些人会选择弥补自己的后悔

而有一些人选择重心开始

我就是会重新开始的人...

我遇到了一些人...

有的, 个性古怪

有的, 个性难搞

有的...真的很高兴能遇到他们

其实, 我好像觉得坏的东西永远那么醒目...

好的反而变得那么眇小又普通...

难道那些个性古怪难搞的人其实是要当个醒目的普通人?

2009-12-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

People wonders what am i doing in the park when the park is not open yet.

My family also wonder why am i in the park and work when it is not open yet.

Maybe nobody knows that there are a lot of tests to do before people get to ride on it.

Nobody knows that there are a lot of preparation works to do before the park open.

It is for all safety purposes, for the safety of all people.

Who will dare to ride if you found out they just build and let people ride.

It's the same concept on who will dare to live if you found out nobody check whether the foundation is strong a not.

It's the same concept on who will dare to sit if you found out that nobody bothers to maintain the airplane.

Something weird..

There are a sudden grow on Arashi fans.

Not that i am hating about it, i am just happy that there are a lot of people like them!

They are just unique in a way that people just like them.

Tomorrow going to have dance session at Istana pavilion there..

Hope everything will be smooth and fine...

2009-12-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

It's nearly 1 month for me to work in Universal Studio Singapore.

I've get along well with the people there and it's really a fun & interesting place to work in.

Get to know what has done before the opening.

All those preparations, it is tiring but fruitful for me.

Got into this blogshop and I intend to buy 4 pairs of sneakers...

Okie, I know...It's scary...

But just want to share it to you guys which sneakers I wanted.

Among all the 4 pairs that i want to buy, got like 2 pairs i need to buy.

There are 2 pairs...

But 1 pair is for work...but i am still waiting for what is the guideline for that...

Christmas is coming!

I know! I can feel it!

However, what i feel the most is that, i maybe will work on that day...

Got this feeling only...it is so strong...

2009-12-06T01:00:00.002+08:00

Should find some day to change my BLOGSKIN !!!

FIONA'S BLOGSKIN is so nice and organize...LOL...

Okie...maybe it is not my personality to be like that...

But then....see how lahh

Anyway, these recent days are quite tiring for me...

I think i got sick bah...

Cough & having headaches now..><

But i think next week should be fine?...

coz working till 7pm...

Universal Studio Singapore are still doing a lot of preparation work.

A lot of things have done and a lot of things still got to be done.

Safety is the priority...

Somehow...some things just got to move on...

I'm still searching and finding ways to get into it..

Life is to take risks, Enjoy it to the fullest...

I hope i can just work on more...

Might got the chance to see more things!!!

Can i get to other places too?...

1 major mistake...

I lost my card...

Damn sad about it...

Do not know where it is now...

But then what's done is done so...

lalalalalaala

2009-11-30T01:04:00.002+08:00

While waiting for my video to be converted, I shall update my blog a bit.

Officially start work @ Universal Studio Singapore.

I have a great time there but i'm getting tan.

Will try all kinds of stuff to prevent my skin to get more tanned.

Lots of work to be done and yah..

I feel that i am doing something!

Going to work till 9pm later on.

Heard is another attraction..

My current attraction is Canopy with some HT.

Then this is like Revenge of the mummy, i cant be sure though...

Oh...i found the official blog for Universal Studio Singapore..

It tells you about the updates of the location.

Just google it and you'll find it! :)

85% to go..

Hmm... Shall update soon i guess...><

SNEAKBEATS, FUNKY NUTZ...Yoz!

2009-11-19T11:34:00.002+08:00

This week is like fully packed except Wed and Thurs, which is today. haha.

Emotionally, I am so excited for the Fri sentosa site.

Get to see the actual construction site of the USS.

Mon

Having day 1 of orientation at Manhattan House.

I think i sat the wrong seat though, the air con didn blow there.

It's stuffy, and i am block between 2 people.

Cant be so carefree...

And yesh, one of them is the one that i met on the day 1 at the HQ.

Tue

Decide to change my seat, with J if i am not wrong.

Coz we having the same thinking about that row.

We are laughing silently about this.

In the end, we didn really get together because we change our seats again.

According to the months and dates we are born but not the year.

Luckily, i didn get to meet those 2...

I want to meet new people! Know more people!

Part of the time, i will go doodling around the book.

So in the end, it ends up like what the photo shown.

We have the string thing activities, and i think somehow people have their own idea.

I think i am a careful person who will like know where the lines is.

Then somehow people will think i get too hyper about it..

But actually it's not...LOL.

People will get frustrated and irritated by various incident

that the trainer almost wanted us to stop the activity.

Somehow, i think it is how you handle the scenario.

My only concern is that for those who are hurt emotionally during the activity.

They're trying to help though...

I'm trying to help but i'm told not to be too hyper.

So i just go back to the center and wait loh...

I'm the person that i wanted to help but if you told me off.

Off i go and that's it.

Let you do although i know the method.

So the rest of the activity is that i just stay at the middle when need to collect string then collect.

Then just do what i have to do in the middle with the opposite person.

Quietly we always do it ok...

Finally, we get to have the lid place nicely.

Happy ending and that's the end of the activity.

And all the emotion there...I throw.

I dun hold it...

I manage to ask the person who's being hurt..

Although i think it's okay bah...

Then the whole activity ends with Apologies, Hug, hand shake...

I think somehow people forgive and forget.

Like that, you will not always think any o how.

Having Mac later on...LOL..

Okie, i cross my diet...><

But i still stick to my before 8pm dun eat.

Yup, that's me...

LOL..

I tied my fringe up because it's getting longer...LOL.

Blood Personality Test

2009-11-13T20:24:00.004+08:00

Having the same blood type as SHO...

And even my inner blood personality test is also A...

LOL...

http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/5188413/whats-your-blood-type-personality

The below is my result. ^^

Your Result

You have type A blood! The Rh (+ or -) factor does not play a role in your personality.
People with blood type A have a deep-rooted strength that helps them stay calm in a crisis when everyone else is panicking. However, they tend to avoid confrontation, and feel very uncomfortable around people. A types are shy and sometimes withdrawn. They seek harmony and are very polite, but all the same feel that they never really fit in with others. A types are very responsible. If there is a job to be done, they prefer to take care of it themselves. These people crave success and are perfectionists. They are also very creative, and the most artistic of all the blood types, most likely because of their sensitivity.
People with blood type A are also likely to be considered classic "type A's": stressed and conscientious.
Seto Kaiba is a type A character. Real people with type A blood:
Alan Alda
Adolf Hitler
Bush senior
Britany Spears

http://www010.upp.so-net.ne.jp/abofan/index-e.htm

The Characteristics of TYPE A People (November 20, 1997)

Considerate about everything
Prefer peaceful human relations
Slow to trust people
Observe social rules and customs
Regard social order as important
Restrain action and expression
Apt to think conventionally
Pessimistic about the future
Tries to be optimistic about the past
Perfectionist
Endure continuous effort
Weak at maintaining the status quo
Weak at keeping continuous and intensive interest
Emotional wounds heal slowly
Strong desire for transformation
Seek one's raison d'etre
Make a distinction between right and wrong
Attentive to one's own security
Less expressive than Type O and Type B
Anxious

My summary from Mr. Masahiko NOMI's book "Ketsueki-gata Josei Hakusho" (Blood Type Woman White Paper).

Basic personality of Type A is rather difficult to describe. However, there are two major ones: 1) sensitiveness to the society and 2) safe consciousness.
The former equals with Type O's sensitiveness to the power. The range of the "society" differs by individuals. Japanese proverb says "the shame of a trip is threw away". It is really for Type As. It is the trip that Type As get out from the society.
As for Type A, there are many "honor students". Type-A people usually respect the customs, rules and common sense. However, to the contrary, some Type-A people repels worldly things. Both come from the sensitiveness to the society. Generally, the former is seem to occupy majority. There is -- maybe due to racial difference -- impression that there are more strong active Type As in Westerners.
Another personality, perfectionism, already appears in even infant period. The perfectionism is applied to everyone. Even scrupulousness, elaborateness, prudence etc. are born from the strong sense of responsibility and independence. On the other hands, perfectionism for other people is easily to become a 'Type A of nag'.
The perfectionism and the unyielding nature is easily combined to form argumentative personality. The fame of obstinate stubbornness prevails. Type A seldom apologizes. Gentleness and stubbornness, these may be one of the Type A's of double nature.

I have many comments because there are many Type As around me. First of all, the fundamental characteristic of Type A is the "intensity of internal feeling" and logic of "should be". I think that Japanese "family" culture which distinguishes "in" and "out" is from Type A. If perfectionism appears well, a person becomes an honor student. Also, even "Wa" -- the core culture of Japan -- is from Type A. Foreigners (Westerners?) are said to have strong feeling of self-assertion than Japanese. If one is in "assert-oneself" culture, Type A becomes self assertive, as Type A is deeply concerned with the society.
But I am impressed with Type A's careful and warmhearted nature many times.

http://www.issendai.com/rpgs/takemywings/bloodtypes.htm

Japanese Blood Types and Personality
Every Japanese celebrity writeup and every anime character description with any claim to authority gives the person's (or character's) blood type. Why? Because, thanks to a remarkable bit of Science! by a gentleman named Furukawa Takeji, the Japanese believe that a person's blood type affects their personality.
Each blood type has a personality profile. These profiles—which I took from a site whose location is long since lost in the mists of time, my apologies—are:
Type A
People with blood type A have a deep-rooted strength that helps them stay calm in a crisis when everyone else is panicking. However, they tend to avoid confrontation, and feel very uncomfortable around people. A types are shy and sometimes withdrawn. They seek harmony and are very polite, but all the same feel that they never really fit in with others. A types are very responsible. If there is a job to be done, they prefer to take care of it themselves. These people crave success and are perfectionists. They are also very creative, and the most artistic of all the blood types, most likely because of their sensitivity.
People with blood type A are also likely to be considered classic "type A's": stressed and conscientious. In anime, people like Hotohori are type A's.
The Third Hokage, Haruno Sakura, Hotohori, Heero Yui, Keiko (Kayko) Yukimura
Type B
People with blood type B are the most practical of the blood groups. They are specialists in what they do. When they start a project, they spend extra time understanding and trying to follow directions than others might. When they are doing something, all of their attention is focused on it. They tend to stick to a goal and follow it through to the end, even if it seems impossible. They tend to be less than cooperative, as they like to follow their own rules and their own ideas. They are individualists. B type people pay attention to their thoughts a little more than their feelings, and therefore can sometimes seem cold and serious.
People with blood type B are often considered more relaxed, freewheeling, and unconventional than other types, although not necessarily to an unacceptable degree. In anime, the genki, off-the-wall types are type B, along with any kind of well-intended character who's ruled by their impulses.
Naruto, Duo Maxwell, Miaka, Nuriko, Tasuki, Sagara Sanosuke
Type O
People with blood type O people are outgoing, energetic and social. They are the most flexible of the blood types. They easily start up projects but often have trouble following through because they give up easily. They are flighty and not too dependable. O types always say what's on their mind. They value the opinion of others and like to be the center of attention. Also, people with O blood are extremely self-confident.
Type O, the most "average" blood type, is considered the best type in Japan.
Quatre, Sailor Moon, Saito Hajime, Kamiya Kaoru, Tamahome
Type AB
People with blood type AB are hard to categorize. They can have characteristics on both ends of the spectrum at the same time. For instance, they are both shy and outgoing. They easily switch from one opposite to another. AB people are trustworthy and responsible, but can't handle it when too much is asked of them. They don't mind doing favors or helping out, as long as its on their own conditions. People with this blood type are interested in art and metaphysics.
AB is considered the worst blood type. In predictability-loving Japan, they're loose cannons. They also like to set their own conditions and reserve the right to drop out when things don't meet their expectations. They're known to be sensitive and considerate—at times—but it just isn't enough to balance out the flaws in this blood type. For a while, some companies tried dividing their employees into work groups based on blood type, and no one wanted to work with the AB group. Anime villains are likely to be type AB.
Uchiha Sasuke, Hongo Yui, Tomo, Trowa Barton, Kenshin
A is most compatible with A and AB.
B is most compatible with B and AB.
AB is most compatible with AB, B, A, and O.
O is most compatible with O and AB.
The idea that blood type determines personality has been dying out slowly in Japan. At the same time, the West has finally noticed the potential of blood typing. We haven't quite cottoned onto the idea that blood type is related to personality, but there's a growing belief in fad diets that teach that each blood type evolved at a certain point in human history, so people with that blood type should eat the diet most common among humans at that point. Instead of balanced, nicely average O's, we have savage cavemen hunching around the fire and tearing at hunks of meat; solid-citizen type A's become "docile vegetarians" as well; bouncy type B's get to indulge in ice cream and cheese; and type AB's, as always, are half one thing and half another, and get to eat vegan food or dairy-and-everything-else—IF it suits them. Blood type diets are worth looking into if only to imagine your favorite characters' reactions to their new diets.
Sailor Moon, cavewoman. That image puts me in a happy place.

2009-11-11T11:08:00.002+08:00

Mostly I believe that when you cant find the one you are interested in,

you create one that you are interested with.

It maybe difficult to create but there is surely some people having the same interests as you.

All you have to do is to find that people from the forum and the thing will go on.

It is one of the things i have done recently.

Somehow, i just cant find any place that teaches ARASHI mtv dance...

I find their recent dance move very cool so i wanted to learn and dance.

Something just appear me that i can just ask ARASHI fan whether they know any place..

Instead, we are creating a project among the fans!

All of our tension are UP UP UP

まやちゃん actually will teach us the dance move as she happens to know the routine.

So she will be the 先生 for さらし！

happen to any o how create names for the group.

The location will most probably at orchard...

Some dance studio that i happen to come across with..

hoping to start soon and it's like in Dec.

So HYPER HYPER HYPER!!

Get my lazy bone moving and get my weight down...

Do i have to say that my weight went up tremulously?...

I'm kind of scare that i get overweight....><

2009-11-10T12:16:00.002+08:00

Sat

Meet aloy for his own gathering..Kind of last min but i go anyway..

He complains a lot...I laugh a lot...LOL...

A very fine gathering with a lot of memories in DArch Poly Life...

Bought white headphone for BRENDA for her christmas present...

But lie to her i didn buy it..LOL

Start my no-fried Diet...although did eat some fried a little..><

Sun

Dad injured his arm muscle i think... All of us telling him to go and see doc/sensei but he refuse..

Went to boon lay to collect my shoes! so high on that!! total 2 hours trip with one single ticket..

Go ah ma house for prayer because it's her 7th day...or what they say she will come back for one last time...

Heard mum said Ah gong got come back on that day...

Start my less rice diet...at night...HOPE get my weight down!!!

Starting up a new project about ARASHI...LOL

Start to sleep early...

Mon

Confirmed that the ARASHI project is coming up and TENSION is HIGHING!

going to meet new friends for dance!!!

Confirm schedule on SAT...and maybe SUN...

KB Call up for PT to go for meeting...

Asked the reason...dun know..

but later capt call and answer my question so it's ok le..

FUTURE

Next Mon & Tue got Orientation at Manhattan House...

Working soon!!!

Still confirming whether the Project it's coming up..Tension UP UP UP

ARASHI - Step & Go

Sat got Sentosa Outing for church hope a lot of people going!

Sun Meeting!

2009-11-03T01:12:00.002+08:00

今は朝１時１３分です。

お祖母さんの死ぬユースを...

Grandma passed away just now...

I actually do not know what to write now...

But I know Grandma is in heaven now and not suffering...

I LOVE YOU although i didn show it out loud...

Mac Monopoly Singapore

2009-10-29T14:12:00.002+08:00

I got extra River Valley, Ardmore Park & Geyland Road.

Anyone?

Going for an interview soon.

but i think without the Autocad software...

I don think i can get the job..

Although i feel that company is in need of people.

2009-10-28T19:35:00.001+08:00

Damn...

I do not have AutoCad in my com...

I think tml i will go there for nothing le bahh...

Haix...

ありがとう　神様！

2009-10-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

Just when i feel depress on my now state...

God answered one of my calls when i prayed.

I got 2 jobs offer. ( Yesh! happy)

One of them is more like draftman basis, but i have to go for an interview in order to get this job on friday.

The company is at Toa Payoh so i think it's going to be fine. I do not know.

It's a project basis, more like they pay on each drawing done. I do not know what will that be.

Another one is from the U.Studio that i talk about.

I got a call from them and next fri will get to find out more about it.

Very excited!!!

Soon, it's good bye to K.B le...

Yesterday we had a simple birthday celebration on Mom.

Really simple, and 3/4 of the cake is still not eaten.

LOL.

私は櫻井翔君の事が大好きです！

彼は可愛いとかこいいです！

恋の感じは何？...

2009-10-27T16:51:00.003+08:00

恋の感じは何ですか。

解かんない。

私は恋の感じは解かんない。

だから、この問題．．．

Went to buy mom's birthday cake at Novena Secret Recipe.

Unfortunately, the chocolate Banana is not available at the outlet.

Freak!

In the end, bought Chocolate Moist Cake...

Do not know whether will be it nice..

But the plastic knife of the SR is really special...

Get to collect the Mac's Monopoly card sticker.

Got one extra River Valley sticker.

Anyone want it??

Read previous posts of mine, lots of different memories written inside.

But i forget it before i read the post.

Somehow i just grateful that i have written that much.

Or else i will not know what i have done for the past few months after graduation.

あ！思いてます！

Before went to Novena, I sat the MRT.

Then this guy who is sitting next to me is looking at me for dun noe what.

He looks at what am i writing about.

But i am just scribbling all the words i remember.

マイガルー

相X　雅紀　Aiba Masaki

Fiona Tan Tze Li

Fiona Tan Tze Li Teo See Min Jasmine Lee Guang Zu Joe Hsu Hsin Wen News

Kong YiLing

Wong Zheng Yang Ernest Tan Mei Qi Maggie Lee Zi Qi Loh Mei Jin Xie Yanning

Architecture Diploma In Architecture Singapore Polytechnic

一颗苹果

一顆苹果

Cineleisure (Scribble a stickman)

K Box Partyworld K Suite Honey Lemon Ice Lemon Tea

Music Story Fang Lao Shi Anthony Pang.方老师

Khatib Yio Chu Kang Ang Mo Kio Bishan Braddell Toa Payoh Novena Newton

Orchard Road Somerset Douby Ghaut City Hall Raffle Place Marina Bay

Tan Tock Seng Hospital Square (2) Novena Hello Kitty Paradise Hagedaz

明日の記憶　　嵐

明天的记忆岚

あしたの　００　（まるまる）

Sakurai Sho 櫻井翔　Domoto Tsuyoshi 堂本剛　Domoto Koichi 堂本光一

金钱

Life seems to past really fast after studies.

一转眼, 已经快要到年底了.

我到底为我自己做了什么?

真実の世界は本当に悪い．．．

2009-10-26T16:52:00.003+08:00

梦想...一个幻想...

真的要实现的话, 需要很大的勇气, 花很多的金钱与时间.

原来在我拿到文凭之后, 我要实现的梦想离我越来越远了...

当然要付出的金钱与时间也要愈来愈多了.

现在知道为什么父母亲不要我再读多一回文凭...

当我拿到了cert之后, 我已不能有什么Tuition Grant了...

我需要付更多的金钱...

当年的犹豫到底是为了什么...

この世界は夢の地獄です。

私はその感じ思ってます。

334th post

2009-10-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

The Thursday outing is really killing me but it is totally hell fun and full of laughter.

Yesh, Laughter brought by Fiona & News.

Will always be the one laughing out loud...

The next day is also...nearly dun wan to go to work because of ache...

I think we played too much and high too much that cost the 3 of us to be that tire..

Fiona Neck ache..

Me...Leg, shoulder and neck pain..

Too much jumping, too much laughing...

Oh...just remember from Shawn that watercolour paint can be done any time.

that is what he had said when we met during the outing.

at that time, i just envy that he can do his stuff but do not know the reason why i am envy of.

I know the answer now.

It is because of Rachel.

She is hyper-active that sometimes you got to stop doing on own things and bring your attention to her.

She'll take your things, mess the room up or something that you cant just sit down and do your painting.

You cant be alone doing your own stuff when she is around or awake.

She wants your attention and your accompany.

Washing Machine is down and so hands-on is up.

LOL.

*I want to be married.LOL.

This is what i have thought about.LOL.

The GIF

2009-10-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

Surrogate

2009-10-21T15:54:00.002+08:00

Surrogate is really a nice movie. It is not what i thought it is but i really like it.

That kind of life, making everyone a ZAI NAN/NV.

It quite sad if that goes on because there is not interact anymore.

No sense of touch, excitement...

It is just visual.

Learn a lot from that movie.

Yesterday went to work and visit ah ma after that.

Quite sad actually then get to listen to Uncle James talking.

I was so nervous and do not know what to do.

I am quite shy when it gets to someone to me is more elder than me.

Sometimes i just do not know how to react to it.

But in the end, it actually quite okay..

then sit over there looking at ah ma, uncle james, patients over...

Life...

Cafe World

2009-10-19T13:21:00.001+08:00

The maximum for the Thumbs up is 105.

Lol.

It cant get higher...

And a lot of people just flood in.

終わり！

2009-10-18T16:33:00.003+08:00

Above is the 1st try.

Below is the recent try. (2nd try) ^^

Finally finish the 2nd one.

A lot of improvements being made.

Satisfaction 100%

Get to order 2 sneakers again.

Karen also got order.LOL.

Anyway, i spent a lot during recent days and work lesser days...

soon and hope, going to stop my work at K-BOX..

But i do not know when.

Still waiting for the U. Studio to confirm my work.

Really looking forward to it.

Although it may be a few stop further than Orchard.

Plus, I really wanted to study Japanese but it is the fee that stop me.

Then dance lesson too.

Looking at Arashi's dance video really pushing my urge to take my sneaker and dance again.

Plus with the FAME movie.

If there is lesson on ARASHI version dance...

I want to dance...but reality really stuck me...

Actually nothing is impossible.

it is more on do you want to work on a not.

but money is the one factor that is for me to have luxury with.

It is for me to eat, drink, transport.

Please let me have more money to survive.

Any gatherings for POLYs?

Especially to Yiling!

Yah...and the just-got-into-NS Aloy...LOL

My 1st time Snitching,,,

2009-10-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

For the past 1 week, I was snitching this design.

A lot of errors here and there but i finally finishing it..

Going to snitch the 2nd design...

Hope there is much less error...

Read this Chinese Love Novel...

拍照当时影中人的笑容换来日后的回味 ,

但前提是 , 图片里的人谁也不能离开 ,

照片实在太具杀伤力 , 冲印出来的回忆证明着大家的友情 , 两人的爱情 .

不变的事实是 , 即使照片被销毁 , 撕裂 ,

影像却已经深刻在每个人的记忆中 , 怎么破坏也抵挡不住思念 .

I like this quote, it's very true.

Sometimes, when we look back, there are things we have lost through the days.

Although friends are there, but the relationship is not that close anymore than those days.

It is very sad.

However, it is the truth.

喜欢别人只是因为感觉 , 想一阵风吹来 , 很舒服 , 心情很愉快 ,

但这样的感情基础太薄弱了 ,

如果有另一道强风吹来 , 那我就会被吹走 , 慢慢的消失不见 .

悲しみです。

でも、本当！

さあ、笑って、鳴って！

恋人の愛。

Bad news, Good News

2009-10-06T18:27:00.002+08:00

Let's talk about GOOD NEWS 1st.

I have upgraded to be auntie!!!

My cousin give birth to a baby boy named Princeton.

I haven look at him personally but C had show the video of him blinking his eyes.

Very very cute!!!!

And so Rachel(5 years old) become auntie...LOL

Then the Bad News...

Just heard from Mum that..

The doctor think that Ah Ma may go off anytime...

Maybe tonight or tml night.

So have to stand by for it...

It's really terrible feeling i have...

Last year, Ah Gong....

May God bless Ah Ma to survive on this.

Please Bless Her!!!

Ytd went to visit her but she is in COMA...

Then heard from relative, that before the medicine insert or insert something...

She is really perfect Ok..

She can smile like she normally do, look at those who visit her..

But then the night, she had fits but all the other nurses are focusing on the patient beside her..

Nobody notice until the fits upgraded to Stroke...

And letting her into COMA...

I do not know whether whose fault is it...

but i just feel sad about it...

Mum have rush down to see her now together with dad...

Rachel & Brenda are sleeping and with their age, they cant visit her...

I have to stay behind take care of them...

Please God...Angel, pls take care of her...

LET HER SURVIVE..LET HER WAKE UP...

I DONT WANT HER TO GO....

Sad News

2009-10-01T23:36:00.003+08:00

I didn realise the world can be very small, especially in Singapore..

Should know by now about the SP guy incident, it's really a sad ending...

Nobody will know the real story behind it accept the police or maybe the person himself.

More to it, what will happen to the teacher-in-charge?

My church mate is the same batch of group that go for internship in China,

so it another friend of mine, and the person is even closer term...

It's really a small world...

Grandma is in hospital because she is having high fever...

BLESSED GOD, PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF HER

May go to hospital and see her...

if the plan is still on...

The tiger incident still haunt me...

Sometimes, being loyal is just being stupid...

So just selfish a bit for your future, because it's just your future and yourself...

or else, your parents gonna haunt you...(yah, they use this incident to haunt me...)

真是帅爆了!

2009-09-27T15:49:00.001+08:00

BLUE - To Love and Be Loved

2009-09-27T13:45:00.002+08:00

I am compassionate. I am always encouraging and supporting.

I am a peacemaker, sensitive to the needs of others. I am a natural romantic.

I like to do things that require caring, counseling, nurturing, and harmonizing.

I have a strong desire to contribute and to help others lead more significant lives.

I am poetic and often enjoy the arts.

I value integrity and unity in relationships.

I am enthusiastic, idealistic, communicative, and sympathetic.

I express my feelings easily.

Your heart-felt communication style creates peace and harmony in the workplace.

You know how to bring out the best in others. As a Blue personality you are gifted with tremendous people skills.

You're a heart felt communicator who has a strong need to make a difference in the lives of other people.

This strength is immediately noticeable in the way you make connections and bring out the best in those you encounter.

People usually feel relaxed and comfortable in your presence.

You love to build self-esteem and make others feel good about who they are.

You can easily motivate and inspire people to make changes in their lives and reach their potential.

This natural talent makes you excel a counselor, teacher, social worker and journalist, but the list is far greater in the book.

http://www.truecolorscareer.com/quiz.asp

Sometimes reality sucks but this is the way of life.

2009-09-19T20:29:00.002+08:00

This week is a busy week. So bear with me about the long post...Geez

-Shawn's belated birthday celebration

-IR briefing session

-Basic Food Hygiene Course

Let's start about Shawn's belated birthday celebration + catching up

Meet at Orchard Ion and I forget who is CS initially...

Then i kind of remember him! Lol...

Have a few shots.

Shot this while waiting for them.

(Kind of scare that they cancelled last min)

Finally get to know where is Kikki.K store located!

So damn high about them opening

I am so wanting to work with them.

While waiting....

Me.

Shawn

Aloy.

These photos are shot by Wei Hung.

See Heng.

Guang.

These are shot by me :)

We wanted to catch a movie but the timing is really not appropriate.

Finally we watch THE PROPOSAL

YESH! THE PROPOSAL

I watch it again!

LOL.

It's really nice and fun.

Some random shots.

It's nice having to go out and listen to what they are encounter in their NS life..LOL

It's not boring, it's part of life and am really happy and fun to listen to all kinds of topic.

Being NS man is honored, but i'm not going to NS....

Now IR Briefing Session

Karen and I (with karen's friends) go for a briefing session on IR.

Resorts World Sentosa (UNIVERSAL STUDIO)

If i can work there, it'll be great.

It sounds so exciting!

After the interviewing, we go to Lakeside to collect my shoe.

However, before that, we sit till Joo Koon and it is a really ulu place...

But there is where Singapore Discovery Centre is.

We take some photos in the MRT.

But for the photos, it's still in the camera, so got to wait...

Then Basic Food Hygiene Course

Well, it gives me the knowledge on it..

It's enriching and for the test, it is fun!

Practical, it's even more FUN!

Anyway, Karen, Sookhar and I pass the test.

For those who LIKE MATSUMOTO JUN & NINO!

2009-09-14T12:43:00.001+08:00

It's the baby carer series again!

This time is Matsumoto Jun & Nino!

The baby look like Rachel A BIT!!! LOL

For those who really LOVE baby!!!!

2009-09-14T01:53:00.003+08:00

It is video from Himitsu No Arashi Chan...

It's really cute, especially how they handle the baby...

As a sister and had look after baby before, the feeling is really there for me...

Sakurai Sho is damn cute!!

お父さん！誕生日おめてと！

2009-09-14T01:14:00.002+08:00

お父さんへ

四十五歳のお誕生日おめてと！

パパ大好きです！

今まては本当にありがとうございます！

Enough of the Japanese, haha..

I think my Jap is rotting, got to study again before it gets too rusty..

Anyway, i'm going to celebrate my DAD's 45 & SIS's 5 birthday as they are 1 day apart...LOL

Hope it goes well and have a joyful day...

Went to Studio Wu Recital to watch Chris & Xavier performance

Really nice!

The lighting over there at NAFA campus 3 is really really very very very nice!!!

The stage is big, the light is nice

It is really really great..

Got to see lots of different kinds of dance and making me really want to dance...

but then, i got to prevent myself from spending it...

My target is still not meet yet...

I got to get in that job, i really do...

Unless we say what we want, they will never know

2009-09-09T21:00:00.002+08:00

I've read an article on Boys/Men do not know what Girls/Women think unless they tell them.

Every female might have this imagination/daydream on...

how good will it be when the other half know completely how you feel, think, dream of.

But in reality, they do not know what we think of..

Unless we say what we want,

or else no matter how we beat around the bush, they will never know...

I think it is really true!

Nobody will know unless you say it out...

Don't care whether it is selfish on what, JUST SAY IT OUT!

Let your thoughts be heard...

I bought yet another sneaker, complete black with white below...

LOL...

Leaving my target for the HK trip will be 600 SGD...

My mum bought winter wear jacket for HK trip, really nice outfit.LOL

Heard it gonna be cold when we travel there...

Researching, Researching & Researching

2009-08-23T21:55:00.004+08:00

This morning, I wake up quite early just to take a morning shower before Karen.

Or else, if i were to wait for her to finish, I will be late for the bus to church.

As usual, go NorthPoint to eat, return Brenda's overdue library books.

Walk around to window shopping, and nearly buy something back home..

(I'm on the midst on saving up money, which is making me really in stress..)

Have some argument talk the night before, and is getting upset about the outcome.

But somehow, it make me wonder about a lot of things...

Then having discussion on the topic with this long-time-no-talk guy...

Seriously, do i still have that with the person?

He said "恭喜你了!你喜欢上他了."

Really, smack him!

Just because i got this thought doesnt mean i like him right?

Then even if i like him, do he still have the same feeling?

After all those moments, and finally back to the part i used to.

But the recent encounter making me feel lost...

Have he sense my change of attitude on life? (Coz i'm tire from the work and brain dead)

Does he dislike me because of this...( The 1st thing in mind after the conclusion he given)

Have i overdone things... (The "BH" thing, and some nonsense i have done)

I make him feel annoyed and irritating... (Argue back with even more nonsense...)

It's really silly...after thinking...

These are pointless...

I got to say :

I didn give up on myself,
If that is the feeling he feels about me....

In fact, i am really finding really hard to get what i like to do.

Those job interviews, the finding on courses to study which i am interested with.

The looking through of newspaper & websites...

Back to the home topic...

So the whole day, i am in front of my laptop, watching shows, doing photoshop, printing photos

Surfing other pictures to see how they have done it...

The layouts, the photos, the style, the tutorials...

Even going back to the stationary shop website to see how to make it work.

So long didn do these kind of stuff...LOL..

Am playing Facebook now.

Fish thingy...

Have done some things, try some things, and turn out to be nice...

Maybe a nice planning on how to maintain my MisNonac.

The scrapbook style may not be the one i am looking for..

It is nice to look at but somehow i didn master on how to make it SCRAPBOOK.

Wow, what a long entry...LOL..

The PROPOSAL

2009-08-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

Courtesy from http://michleong.blogspot.com/

I DUN CARE I DUN CARE I DUN CARE!!!

He is damn cute and handsome, even if i am HUA CHI i still like him...

YESH I AM HUA CHI!!! I ADMIT IT!!!

LOL

well, just dun care about the him...

care about us, ladies, on how we rush to the movie theatre after work...

LOL

Well, once i get to the know the timing...1930...

I know the 3 of us got to rush after we finish work..

THEY SAID TILL 7PM BUT DO WE FINISH WORK ON TIME?

NONE!!!

ZERO!

we finish work half an hour late and is every days we work...

so yah..after the debrief, "finish? finish? full-stop? OKIE! LET'S GO!!!"

although i got a lot of add-in lah...then fiona will stop me from going on...

we change, we rush down, Jasmine and i buy popcorn combo and help the other buy theirs

while they go and get the seats before someone illegally get our seats...

i prefer to think this way!! LOL

anyway, the whole movie is damn hilarious!!!!

we are laughing all the way!!!

although there are parts that get emotional...( and i get emotional too...)

REALLY, YOU PEOPLE GONNA WATCH THIS MOVIE!!!!

IT'S WORTH THE PRICE!

* although i heard that they cut scene out...hmm...

Some Stupid Thing I have DONE!

2009-08-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

Am doing some photoshop-ing and without waiting for the pic to be saved completely...

I close the program...

Turned out that my 2nd pic didn save properly...

Gosh! 1 hour of creating it is gone...

DANG!

Tidy up my bedroom, clear up my clothes...

Tml i am working from 11-7pm

Got to sleep early...

Oh, i got the craving on Egg McMuffin...

Hope tml i can eat that as student meal

Life is quite boring now...

And i am choosing whether to go to Taiwan or HongKong...

It's like less than 3 weeks for me to buy air ticket to Taiwan..

but that are a lot of things to be done even if i reach there...

Please God, Can you find a solution for me??

I really really want to get into that class...I want to learn!

Even if it takes 4 months till January 2010...

I also want to learn!!!

But i got to prepare that NT$43,200 for school fees...

maybe for the 2nd class?

Bastard lahh...

About the primary school gathering..

I really dun noe how to make it work..

Make it a special reunion...

Any suggestion?

Oh...i also wish to sing again!

Really, i miss the singing lesson..

I miss the dancing lesson too...

Blood type character quiz

2009-08-15T22:34:00.003+08:00

I totally agree with the quiz on this.

See if you agree with me too!!!

My blood type is A+!!

Type A

Best traits Earnest, creative, sensible
Worst traits Fastidious, overearnest

Type A

People with blood type A have a deep-rooted strength that helps them stay calm in a crisis when everyone else is panicking. However, they tend to avoid confrontation, and feel very uncomfortable around people. A types are shy and sometimes withdrawn. They seek harmony and are very polite, but all the same feel that they never really fit in with others. A types are very responsible. If there is a job to be done, they prefer to take care of it themselves. These people crave success and are perfectionists. They are also very creative, and the most artistic of all the blood types, most likely because of their sensitivity.

People with blood type A are also likely to be considered classic "type A's": stressed and conscientious. In anime, people like Hotohori are type A's.

Type B

Best traits Wild, active, doer
Worst traits Selfish, irresponsible

Type B

People with blood type B are the most practical of the blood groups. They are specialists in what they do. When they start a project, they spend extra time understanding and trying to follow directions than others might. When they are doing something, all of their attention is focused on it. They tend to stick to a goal and follow it through to the end, even if it seems impossible. They tend to be less than cooperative, as they like to follow their own rules and their own ideas. They are individualists. B type people pay attention to their thoughts a little more than their feelings, and therefore can sometimes seem cold and serious.

People with blood type B are often considered more relaxed, freewheeling, and unconventional than other types, although not necessarily to an unacceptable degree. In anime, the genki, off-the-wall types are type B, along with any kind of well-intended character who's ruled by their impulses.

Type AB

Best traits Cool, controlled, rational
Worst traits Critical, indecisive

Type AB

People with blood type AB are hard to categorize. They can have characteristics on both ends of the spectrum at the same time. For instance, they are both shy and outgoing. They easily switch from one opposite to another. AB people are trustworthy and responsible, but can't handle it when too much is asked of them. They don't mind doing favors or helping out, as long as its on their own conditions. People with this blood type are interested in art and metaphysics.

AB is considered the worst blood type. In predictability-loving Japan, they're loose cannons. They also like to set their own conditions and reserve the right to drop out when things don't meet their expectations. They're known to be sensitive and considerate—at times—but it just isn't enough to balance out the flaws in this blood type. For a while, some companies tried dividing their employees into work groups based on blood type, and no one wanted to work with the AB group. Anime villains are likely to be type AB.

Type O

Best traits Agreeable, sociable, optimistic
Worst traits Vain, rude

Type O

People with blood type O people are outgoing, energetic and social. They are the most flexible of the blood types. They easily start up projects but often have trouble following through because they give up easily. They are flighty and not too dependable. O types always say what's on their mind. They value the opinion of others and like to be the center of attention. Also, people with O blood are extremely self-confident.

Type O, the most "average" blood type, is considered the best type in Japan.

Canon 1000D

2009-08-03T15:47:00.003+08:00

Canon 1000D

After like how many months of looking at different kind of camera, Nikon or Canon

After like how many months of looking at the price tags, Below $1000 -$1500, Over $2000

After consulting a lot of different people, Really a lot of different people

Karen and I bought Canon 1000D...

( Karen's gonna kill me for posting this up...I gonna kill myself for releasing this out... )

I am not the only owner of this Camera (I own 50% of the ownership)

I still got the goosebumps on buying the DSLR...

We didn tell mom about this because...

SHE WILL KILL THE BOTH OF US!!!

Anyway, we tried out the camera after we bought it and it's about 12 hours later...

And, we shoot it when she is asleep.... : P

It turns out to be GOOD!

Or at least this is what i want it to be...( Although i still like Nikon D90, Karen is Canon Type..)

Just have to find a day out with Karen or maybe others to shoot! LOL

Well, we are the budget type ...

Let's just look at the pictures bahh!!!

* Shot by Karen

I still think that Karen has more photograph skills than me!

* Shot by Karen

Let's getting started!

* Shot by Me

Firstly, We have to read the instruction book for guidance!

*Shot by Me

Let's see what they are teaching us about!

*Shot by the self-timer!

Karen is looking at the self-timer & Live-mode

Then we get this photo shot.

* Both Shot by Karen

She is using the Bokeh Style (The style i love)

Heard that Fiona is starting her Uni Life! Do not know about Jasmine's

So i think there goes to my Sec Clique too...

It's really like weird that i didn get up ..

Haix...

What does he want me to be?...

2009-08-01T21:10:00.002+08:00

I had type my mom's chinese church lyrics for the whole day...

Finally i finish it and have the chance to just do my own stuff for the day...

Then he will come and thinking that i am hiding myself in my study room...

WHAT IS THE POINT?!

I have done my part for the past few days...

Wash dishes, help mother...WATSOEVER!

and now, he will say that is why mother get so fed up!

Rachel is just keep beat me, step me, kick me, slap me...

Wat the hell! Wat the Stupid HELL!

Karen though will take care of her, but when it comes for tv, she will just become a statue..

Brenda will just add the fire up to make it worse, so i rather she will not do anything...

Dad, He just think he will just DIY the thing and expect me to take care or wat...

Then later he will just call me to wash the dishes...

OKIE! I AM A MAID IN THE HOUSE...

WAT THE F**king Shit is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, my feet has that corn thingy...

some sort of skin harden/thicken because a lot of pressure, friction to cause it.

Got to apply the medicine to let it soften and peel off...

Haix...

Really frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

知道自己的目标的男生就是帅惨的啦!

2009-07-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

回想之前在工作的时候, "美女"有这样说过:

"By 这个年底,我就可以升Captain..."

然后他讲过, 其实在公司当上Captain后, 找到的就可以是Supervisor以上的...

对他来说, 真的, 经过很多风风雨雨的事之后, 这真的是最好的.

虽然他有过那些纪录, 可是当他有这些目标的时候, 然后说给J 和我后,

我是被他那对自己有人生目标的想法给电到了!

他真是帅惨了!

当然, 我也蛮羡慕那些为自己的人生目标在拼命的人.

我现在在努力的为我的目标前进+准备.

刚刚跟爸比讲了我在工作上遇上的不如意的事, 也讲过怎么样才能进我要进的工作.

真的, 我要做功课啊!

虽然可能是一家小店但是, 它是迈向目标的一大步!

无论如何就是要抓紧这个机会, 不要让它错失掉!

要Positive!

对于跳舞, 我对它的兴趣是不会掉的...

应该是不可能会消失的, 如果它是会消失的话, 我就不会再学了...

16个星期的休息已经过了1个星期, 那只小火苗要遇上黑碳了.

我承认, 我的Technique退步了...但是多加回想及训练, 应该可以的吧...

哈哈 (*心虚)

I cut my fringe because it irritates my eyes...

2009-07-27T22:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was really a very not good day for me...

I sneezed, I coughed, my eyes watered, my nose irritated...

Just after the call from the cliques, i went to shower because IT IS HOT!

and because my right eye got irritated, i cut my fringe...

after drying up my hair, i got a shock!

LOL...

The hair stand!, but later on it just return to become it's fringe...

LOL..Now, my eye didn get irritated...LOL

yah, another stupid action of mine...

Oh...My dad got a FB account..

LOL...

Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince

2009-07-21T22:42:00.002+08:00

Received a call this afternoon at 1pm by Capt whether i can work for the day...

I got my movie gathering with my godma and therefore i reject it...

Even reject the postponed sec sch clique gathering for the movie...

The movie is nice but some people just do not like it...

I just feel it is funny, romance, sad, sometimes heavy for draco..

Nice...

Having a serious headache from this morning and do not know what's the matter...

Coughing my heart out...and really i think i am seriously not in good health...

After some thoughts, i'm thinking of going for teaching...

If it's math, it's even better...

I think i will go for that..Study again...

Got to work hard on it...

Actually it is one of my childhood goals, be a teacher...

I remembered, when i was a child, i want to be a policewoman...

then a teacher, slowly a dancer, then a artiste...

I got to set my goals right...

Down 惨了...

2009-07-19T00:43:00.002+08:00

不知道是几时的事, 跳舞的热忱慢慢的流失...

可能是因为发生很多我意想不到的事吧...

可能是因为我是三分钟热度的人...

可能是因为不习惯别的老师的教法, 很难追上...

可能是因为耳濡目染使得最初的热诚渐渐冷却...

可能是因为烦恼对于家人的看法,想法与经济...

It is really stressful, even more stressful than i have been before i graduate...

I lost my goal, I lost my mission, I lost my sense of direction onto where to go on...

Money, Social Life, Work, Peers, Family...

It's so hard...

Suddenly, i just lost it...

After the dance test, after the heart to heart talk to them...

I just do not know why i become like that...

I, myself, am disappointed on myself...

I, myself, am finding ways to keep my passion burning...

But all those ICY reality keep on cooling my burning passion...

MY DAD SAID "So, how much do you invest in your dance and what do you get in return "

Yah, he is pouring another bucket of cold water onto me...

or maybe, he is telling me to face the reality instead of fantasy...

or maybe, he is trying to remind me on what i have done to my BALLET...

It's pathetic...

I cried on my way home...really lost my sense of direction towards my goal...

I cried again when i played sudoku on my bed before i sleep..

I woke up in the morning to find myself looking pale..

I cried when i told my mom on what to do on my future...

I cried when i played sudoku alone in Mac after collecting my new shoes and before i meet F&J

I still cant get over with it...

Maybe because i listen to too many bleeding love already...LOL..

JOKE ASIDE...

Due to finance of my own bank account plus, i think my dad has too...

Plus, i need to stop myself from pouring cold water onto my passion...

I don want my passion for dance to die off...

I need more oxygen and time to keep my passion burning...

Therefore, i think i may stop my dance lesson...

I need to stop, look at the passion of the dancers so that my passion will rekindle

I don want to let myself keep on following others blindly just because they are there...

I need to really dig up and find my hidden goal on why i love to dance...

I need to find another job to work on..

i think KBOX is no longer going to feed me..

really screw up

That is my thinking now...

I still cant get myself out of my misery...

I'm so pathetic...

ORZ...

矛盾的心情

2009-07-13T14:26:00.002+08:00

在一个晚上, 某人突然打电话给我.

不知道他是从哪里拿到了我的号码.

原本锁定了不会去管那件事的...

因为那里变了很多, 突然需要很多人手...

不是我不帮, 只是我觉得我不适合那里...

加上, 对待又是另一个问题.

虽然是赚的少没错, 但是我好像忘记当初为什么迟疑的不去答应...

现在演变成这样...也只好, 走一步,算一步了...

但我心里知道, 那里不是我的第二个家就是了...

OMG!!!!

2009-07-11T01:50:00.003+08:00

I am dancing here, I am dancing there,

I am dancing here, and i knock my feet around,

With all blueblacks appearing, and a friction do the trick,

my leg is hurting now...

And a blueblack here, and a blueblack there,

and a blueblack here,and I knock my feet around,

With my left leg 3 blueblacks, and my right leg 1 blueblack,

adding one friction scar...

(sing with the "put your right hand in, put your right hand out" song)

Anyway, i still do not know what to dance for my dance test...

I am not good in my all 3 dances...except that SINGLE LADIES dun nid liao LOL

1st my left feet, now my left feet fourth toe...

2009-06-24T23:51:00.005+08:00

After upgrading my safari (i'm not using firefox...)

it is really really cool loh!!!

then my sis said that actually I.E got..

but then when i look at the I.E , i think safari is better!

LOL

oh...when i feel that my left feet is recover..

my left feet 4th toe got hurt...by the vacuum machine of mine...

you know, that metal sucker...

it is loosen so it drop and my toe is just right at it's landing point...

and YAH...

after scolding quite a no. of vulgar word...

i find my toe swollen...

dotz...

YOU TUBE MANIA

2009-06-23T03:25:00.002+08:00

Seems that i will not be working this week...or so i think...

You tube ing stuff...

and re watch BATTLE ROYALE again...

with looking tatsuya fujiwara act again...

really really LABU LABU him...

but it is just he is cute looking guy..

but the movie he acted...bloody gross lahh...

then watch DEATH NOTE SAGA...

YAGAMI LIGHT...LOL

anyway, met with sec clique at NORTHPOINT HK CAFE...

lots of discussion...lots of updating...

lots of fun

Left foot is a bit swollen...

2009-06-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

No mood to dance on friday after work...

and...i admit that i am a bit attitude...

so sorry..

Left leg is a bit swollen...

so initially going to dance on sat...

i didn go for it...

rest at home...

Finally know what is the word i want to describe for that focus thingy...

the name is Bokeh!

LOL...

Monday going to meet my sec sch clique because it is like about how many years we didn meet

so looking forward to it

i think i going to change my blogskin a little...

some changes to be made!

When i am bored....

2009-06-13T04:14:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, you just feel bored & with this fun com cam in front of me..

Here goes the mayhem and shooting & having fun with it...

I REALLY REALLY WANT A NIKON D90 Kit...

Thanks to Shawn & well, the warm & cold interest of mine...

Get to try out the camera & it is like...WOW!

I FOUND MY CAMERA!

The focus with blur for the BG image...

I totally like that kind of effect...

and only that series or kind of camera can do..

Not my digital camera, my phone camera..

BUT THIS CAMERA...

it is really WHAT THE HELL LAHH...

at least, maybe i can ask my parents to sponsor...

LOL...

will they approve or not..

but at least.. let me find a decent job...

a really decent salary...

and having fun working...

Not...that underpaid work though..

My leg is aching...

About KBOX

2009-06-05T00:45:00.003+08:00

Read Fiona's post (Yeah! i'm blog hopping too!)

Actually, working with the people with the same attitude, mindset

Working will be fun!!

Working with people that is really L-O-N-E-R!

That person is a G-O-N-E-R!

And who will want to work with the person that is a goner?

NOBODY DOES!

Treat people nicely

Do not be that attitude

Do not be lazy

Do not shout vulgar words

Be helpful

Smile

And actually you will make life easier for all of us, even yourself...

Just be self-service...

I mean to those people that i really do not like...

LIKE THEY ARE GOD...

PROUDIES...*SMACK YOUR FACE!

Th3 Story Of Yaya

uncertainties

Miss

My boyfriend's name

...Love...

One Day

Truth......

A Doll's House

Sometimes...

Double

Recently.....

Work.School.Love.Home

I'm 22....

我沒有很想你，我只是...

Zodiac

It's been 3 months

rejection

一人一半,才是(伴) -- 文╱王偉忠

EMO.....LIKE HELL!!!

It's Good Friday

Personality Traits By Blood Type

Personality Traits By Blood Type

Zebra Queen

It's been a while....

Inception

第一天...第二晚...

失恋

Clearing the webs & dust here

♥11种值得深交の女生♥

21st birthday

Lavender series

Movie Marathon

USS

Freedom

Resort World Sentosa

Isn't he SEXY

The night is coming..

RockClimbing IS FUN!

Sherlock Holmes

Which course to choose from?...

2 Jan Activities

2010

Suck It Up & Live With It!

The Changes!

Blood Personality Test

Your Result

The Characteristics of TYPE A People (November 20, 1997)

Japanese Blood Types and Personality

Mac Monopoly Singapore

ありがとう 神様！

恋の感じは何？...

真実の世界は本当に悪い．．．

334th post

The GIF

Surrogate

Cafe World

終わり！

My 1st time Snitching,,,

Bad news, Good News

Sad News

真是帅爆了!

BLUE - To Love and Be Loved

Sometimes reality sucks but this is the way of life.

For those who LIKE MATSUMOTO JUN & NINO!

For those who really LOVE baby!!!!

お父さん！誕生日おめてと！

Unless we say what we want, they will never know

Researching, Researching & Researching

The PROPOSAL

Some Stupid Thing I have DONE!

Blood type character quiz

Canon 1000D

What does he want me to be?...

知道自己的目标的男生就是帅惨的啦!

I cut my fringe because it irritates my eyes...

Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince

Down 惨了...

矛盾的心情

OMG!!!!

1st my left feet, now my left feet fourth toe...

ありがとう　神様！